I saw your comment on religion and I wanted to say something and I hope it helps.
In this scenario, forget your family, you find the faith on your own. And whether it be Christianity on any others. You follow your heart. We’re taught to love each other, not judge each other and to try to find the religion ourselves. And I do stand by that. Everyone knows family constantly think they can make the big decisions, so all you can do is ignore the remarks. People will continuously try to make religion seem like a cult or something bad, but honestly it’s not. It’s awesome, especially to feel like you’re part of something and to know there’s always someone looking out for you. Religion is supposed to be a safe space. A family. And regarding to your family issue I’ll keep you in my prayers, cause that must be the worst. You find your own path my love, even though it may already be set out for you. You’ll find your own way. I have faith in you.
Have a good day.