Me

before anything else im going to tell you my story. it all started last week my mom took my phone away because i was failing tons of classes, and i felt lost without it. (which might sound stupid but it's true) to me that was my only happiness. and i say this because i feel like nobody at home notices me unless im in trouble or they want me for something, and at school im known as "socially unacceptable" because im too chubby or because i dont have the same humor as anybody else. but my only happiness was getting on younow and just talking to anybody who would listen. then today my mom found out i was on younow while im still grounded, and she is mad. she told me to call her but all i know is that she'd only yell at me and wont listen. she only thinks i was on there to get attention from boys, which im not. im on there to just talk, to make friends because nobody else wants to become my friend. since im too afriad to face her, and i have nothing else to live for, i've been thinking about many ways i could just kill myself that will be fast and quick. but then i thought about how it was like when my bestfriend killed himself last year, and i thought to myself "i cant do that to my family, especially since they just started being happy again and realizing he cant come back. so idk should i kill myself or what should i do