suptch
I can't bother
suptch
suptch
I've been hit with spiritual psychosis but also anime girls, but also my brain hurts to think in regards to anything bigger than 2+2
suptch
Had a Nostalgia trip, I'm grateful. Despite the major themes in my drabbles staying the same, the smaller changes prove me something.
soulful_sojourner
@suptch YOOO I JUST SAW YOUR WRITINGSSSS SO HYPED TO SEE NEW ONES TOO *~* WB YOO THENKSSS SM missed ya workss- also thenks sm - you also made me think of taking a book related nostalgia trip..
suptch
I think my mobile Wattpad is busted ಠಿ_ಠ
suptch
this message may be offensive
Shit I had a mental illness, I'm grateful for pregnant/gay thanksgiving
soulful_sojourner
yoo hai- been a while-
hows ya doing?
suptch
Graduating soon, so you know what that means, I'm locking in on my inexpensive hobbies!
suptch
There's only one true purpose to being the greatest among the greats in literature and that is being caricatured in an anime
suptch
@seven_hues sorry for the late reply, but every time I read your comment I'm blown away by the potential, I'd be so stoked to see that. I can't even imagine the fandom! Like the memes in juxtaposition to the seriousness and expansion upon philosophies! Like Wow, Damn!!
seven_hues
@suptch true, but i'm talking full shonen insanity—nietzsche screaming about the will to power while summoning a spectral übermensch, dostoevsky countering with existential dread so intense it warps reality itself. kafka turning into a literal giant insect. virginia woolf manipulating time and space with stream-of-consciousness attacks. pure, unhinged, literary warfare.
suptch
Lately, I've been seeing these introspective videos on YouTube with little views, and I have, (this is a strong choice word, but) resentment or disdain for it. but after some monologuing of my own, I came to two conclusions, It's hard to admit when I don't like something and say it simply so. "I don't like this, I don't like that." Another conclusion is that people don't understand themselves as much as they think, and I trust people to understand themselves, which I may have to rectify.
If you don't understand yourself, how do you conquer that? As if understanding is something to defeat because the only way to get somewhere in that direction is to experience others. We treat understanding so violently, through the pain of ourselves but most of the time through other people. (Maybe it's not pain but a sharp contrast that is shocking and unfamiliar. like when a cow poops for the first time.)
And I'm not going to deny that. I don't like these videos. It's because I think the demographic on some level needs these videos to arrive at some conclusion of themselves. I don't want to say knowing that "being lonely is okay," or "simplicity of an emotion can get you far," is a simple thought, because it is complex. It just makes me frustrated. if I am relatable, then what are you? me?
Watching these videos, I ask myself.
What's wrong with surety of the self when you are young? I misunderstand myself because I try to take and take. I was sure of myself and seeing the seeming age of these people with their simplistic introspections makes me think I did it all wrong. I don't need to be like them. I won't struggle with who I am to myself if it means I don't have to use others.
suptch
I know it sounds patronizing or pretentious, especially with the added "if I am relatable, then what are you? me?" but I meant this in general from the perspective of anyone, if relatable was a sentiment instead of the vernacular of Gen-Z culture, then I think they're would be less struggle to overcome the "You vs them" mentality when we get lost in our feelings and make it a catalyst for meandering interaction.
suptch
When you are young, no, when you are starting out, why do we let people do that, let them make us question who we are?
People are going to project on existence, and in doing so they muddle another's sense of self while clarifying something for themselves. I do it, you do it, your parents do it. but what gets me, is that it will take a long time before they realize why they do it.
I trust people to understand themselves and maybe I shouldn't, maybe I should just trust the experience.
suptch
Sorry guys, I'm in a reclusive creator mode, I will respond eventually but you know how it is, exhaustion and art birthed from trauma, all the over hyped approaches.
Too comfortable just observing and acknowledging rather than validating. And I haven't felt it in a while.
