Rae ❤

Y’all, I cannot believe Romione - After The War is still getting reads and is at 12K reads after 5 years. I know a lot of people are liking it and I’m not sure if I’ll ever actually update it again or not? We’ll see... it’s been a long time since I’ve written any stories. I’m not sure why I ever stopped writing that fan fiction, maybe it’s because I ended up starting high school and never had the time for it. Now I’m in University and have barely had time for myself. 
          
          Anyways, thank you guys so much for all of the reads on that fic. I’m blown away from how it still gets any sort of attention... thank you so so so much. 

Well I've fallen down a dark hole that I've fallen into before but always end up coming back to. I'm not gonna vent very much since I can't explain it very well, but the one person I want to talk to is too busy. But that's okay, because I don't want to mess up their life by wasting their time they need to live. I guess when I go so long without having a genuine conversation with them I start to become a sort of... just... sad person. I know people would say "you shouldn't rely on someone else to keep you happy" and I guess I kind of don't, but this person is my best friend. And them literally living 2,000 miles away from me for as long as I've known them, along with us not talking as much as we would like, and us having our separate lives... I realize this and it makes me so... fucking sad. If you read this, best friend... I miss you, I love you. I know you don't forget about me but I feel lonely at times like this.. just thought you should know. There's my vent that usually only happens late at night. So.. goodnight. Thanks for reading my nonsense.
          
          - Rae

To my best friend:
          I'm not in the best mindset recently, and I want you to know that. It's hard for me to talk about it because I can't explain it. I know it's stupid of me to say "I miss you" when you're just a text away, but... Most of the time these days I feel lonely... Because even if I text you... You don't answer. Sometimes you answer quicker than I think you will. Other times it'll be a day to two. Other times, like recently, it'll be a week.
          Recently we talked on the phone for probably over 5 hours, and that was fun, except for the time I made you cry. I'm sorry for that, but again, that was because I'm kinda messed up right now and had to get what I told you off my chest. 
          I don't want you to read this and feel guilty, I know you're busy with something all the time. Or you simply don't want to talk. It happens... But it makes me think... We are 2,000 miles away from each other, and it scares me that we don't talk like we used to. I'll gladly take any chance to talk to you, I love the days I get to text you all day without any interruptions. 
          I miss you, best friend. Please don't forget that I'm always here. I know it's not anyway to live, being online during all of my free time, but, whenever I'm online I'm always on close watch to see if you make the move to actually talk to me. 
          
          
          I love you, best friend.
          
          - Rae.

Hey best friend, it's me again. Not sure if you actually read these, but... I miss you. Sorry if I'm bothering you, I know you're busy. But I just get kind of down whenever you're not messaging me. I've been thinking a lot about us meeting next month. I'm so excited, but I know I'll probably be really depressed afterward when I have to leave to go home. I love you so much. Can't wait to meet you.

I feel very alone without you, best friend. I've been in a sort of struggle of whether to badger you with texts to get your company or if I should just leave you be... Because I guess you're probably busy... But I realize time is precious... And I end up spending my time with you in mind. You. You. Always you. I don't know why. I would never want to shake it from my head because you're what makes me happy all the time. You're what I'm holding onto. Thank you, best friend. - Rae

Heyo

A message to my best friend:
          
          @jacques_a-dit , I know we haven't talked very much recently, and a lot of bad has happened over the course of 2 months... But I'm still here. I'm thinking about you all the time. I keep reminding myself to text you but,life gets in the way and it's hard. I hope you understand. I get out of school officially in a week. I'll be a senior, then. I wish you luck on your exams, and ask for some luck on mine, as well. I'll be getting a new phone soon,  so we'll talk more. I haven't been myself.... And Im sorry for that. You probably hate me... Hate this version of me. I understand that. But I love you nonetheless. I've been anxious and stressed and a bit depressed without you. But I remember to #AlwaysKeepFighting . Remember, #YouAreNotAlone and #LoveYourselfFirst. Love you, Caroline. Hope to see you in 2 months. 
          
          Love,  Rae. ❤

So, my Romione - After The War story currently has over 8K reads. Why the hell are people still reading it? I wrote it freaking 4 years ago! Whatever. Idk why y'all like it. But I'm keeping it up only because I met my best friend through it.
          
          Have fun with it! If any of you wanna steal anything from it, go ahead. I'm not doing anything with it. 
          
          - Rae =^.^=

I feel like killing myself but I know that'll never happen. So.

Hey guys. I just wanted to say that today marks two years since I've met the most beautiful girl I know, @philandphan . We met through my story, "Romione - After The War" when I had writers block and she gave me an idea. We started talking, Role Playing, etc. And eventually exchanged numbers. We clicked. We've been friends ever since, and have had our fair share of ups and downs, especially recently. But nevertheless, I still love her.
          Caroline, if you read this, I love you to death and I hope we can talk regularly again. I know the distance is tough, heck, I've been depressed and anxious since all this happened (not us meeting, the reason we haven't been talking). I honestly can't function without you. I love you. Call me sometime. Love, Rae. <3 :-*