sxndeew

Bro I think I might be genderfluid

sxndeew

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I need help with a decision, my life at home isn't great to be honest. In reality it's a fucking mess, my house is hoarded with trash enough for bugs to crawl out. My mom started getting really depressed after divorcing my father and pretty much since then our house is a complete mess. It's absolutely disgusting and filthy, there's practically no food and just a horrible place to be. 
          
          I grew up in that house with my siblings but it seems like I'm the only one who's trying to make a change, cleaning doesn't help. I clean some stuff up and it becomes even worse two days later. As much as I love my mom , I can't live here anymore. I barely have enough clothes or materials for school. My siblings don't complain but I am.
          
           I hate it here, my mental health was really bad already and staying here makes it worse. I despise having to sleep or be in this house. I wanna say to an adult about it but I'm scared they're going to take me and my sister away from here and that's not what she needs but it's horrible here. My mom has the tendency to scream a lot, mostly at me because I do something wrong and on my life , does it make me want to just hit myself everytime she tells at me.
          
          We barely have enough money , how are we going to do when we get older. I just need advice and mostly help please share this to other people, thank you if you took the time to read

H4_NN1

@sxndeew . this is a little late but i genuinely do think you should try tell someone with more power to help you and your family about your living situation, there are people that want to help you and have the jobs that can help you guys. im not an expert but maybe you can ask a counsellor at your school or elsewhere to maybe speak to your mother because it sounds like she may need help too. im so sorry with what you're going through, please remember that you are worth it and i believe in you <3
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sxndeew

I'm so hungry , I feel sick to my stomach. We have no food at home and my mom can't buy any because she doesn't have enough money. I don't know if I should make a GoFundMe to help my family or no because I don't think people will see it

sxndeew

@H4_NN1 thank you so much <3 I already talked to my school about it and they can't do much
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H4_NN1

@sxndeew . my god i know sympathy isnt the way to go but i seriously wish i could give you a big hug right now, all i can offer is perhaps you can talk to your school councillor about this, i know they can help parents sign up for benefits when theyre are issues with money at home, you could also go to food banks / shelters if the hunger ever gets so incredibly painful and theres some apps you can use to look up recipes that use the ingredients you still have at home ^^ and if im being patronising please ignore me, i really wish you the best <33
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