@louines689 Hi, I'm so sorry it took me a month to reply! I have been offline due to holiday obligations and then from just recovering from all the stress.
Anyway, I find going in with the mindset that this writing is for me and no one else, makes my writing better. Putting this weight on myself to write to an audience with hopes of striking it big and making money causes me to stress and put writer's blocks in front of myself. However, when I do have that mindset, I also find myself less driven to actually sit down and write. The way I combatted this was finding accountability without the weight of other people's expectations. So I told myself I would post a 1k word chapter on Wattpad every weekday. And that got me to write more often. At the time I also didn't have any followers so I was just throwing things out there for myself really and if someone stumbled over it and read it, then great. Admittedly, as I did get discovered and received more and more readers, I got too deep and overwhelmed by maintaining a certain degree of consistency. It killed my creativity, which is something I'm still actively trying to recover from.
Long story short, I don't know the secret formula yet that allows you to write freely while staying motivated with the hopes of making money off of it. I do feel strongly about writing for yourself though. Writing for others always had me second guessing my work and comparing myself to other books.
As for sounding "better" or "proper", I'll be honest, I'm not the person to ask. There are some grammar or storytelling rules I simply don't agree with and I'll write the way I think sounds right. So, I'm a big supporter of bending rules as needed and finding your own voice. You'll find that voice by writing as much as you can and by reading books from a variety of authors. You'll eventually find what feels right to you and allowing yourself to write like that will just make writing overall easier.
I hope that answered your questions!