Five years! Oh my! This book has been over five years of my life.
The ending is very different to how I was going to make it when I first started writing this story. The ending is happier, calmer. To me this feels like the right resolution, as it’s taken me since Nov 2024 to get these last two chapters done right, to create an ending that I’m happy with as I had written a multitude of things in previous chapters that threw the original idea out the window.
As I said, I’m happy with it. This story started 5 years ago, when I was a very different person with a very different mindset. It wasn’t a great period of my time which did show in the chapters I wrote. But as I grew up the chapters grew up with me, tones changed, characters were more mature and the angst decreased (but never gone!) and the ending solidifies that this project is over, this thing that’s allowed me to meet friends, communities and other hobbies that I wouldn’t have met if not for this book.
There’s mistakes, issues, plot holes and… questionable writing, but that’s how I used to write, used to plan ideas, used to portray characters, and to look back on it and see how far I’ve come is amazing, and something I’d never change.
I mean- I love this story, and there’s a lot of things I’d change in a rewrite which will be focused on having a story I’m happy with, but this book isn’t going anywhere, it’s staying here for as long as this website exists and I’m content. I’m glad it’s over and I can’t wait to move on to the next thing! :D