Hey, it's been a long time since I've said something here. I wonder how it is to be living in a peaceful environment, haha. Why do adults act like children? Why can't they avoid the avoidable? Why do they pick on others while being imperfect themselves? Don't they need a Happy, peaceful, cooperative life? Why is it so hard to see all the terrible things happening and be helpless? When will everything end? Will they ever? Why am I like this? All these years I've been trying to make new escapes where I can hide myself from all these but now where will I hide? Cus I'm the oldest, and need to be more responsible which I wasn't as they say, haha. All the things I did and all of my efforts that I've done to make things easier are invisible to them . And somehow I'm the useless, which ig that I'm. No marks, no extra skills, no money no nothing. ig that makes a complete useless. I donno why I'm so lazy for the past few years, why am I the villain to myself? Why am I so useless? Why am I acting like a victim?why do I talk like that? Am i doing all these to get sympathized? Why am I so pathetic? I fckn hate everything, I'm tired and as always I donno what to do. I'm clueless, I'm lazy, I'm.....
You were one of my most hearty escapes, but you aren't here too hahah, I wish you were here but yah life doesn't work like that. Miss you lots, love you too. Hope everything goes well for you<3