hxeryl
ohhhhh. this is what gabby meant when she thought i lied. love, i didn't lie to you and @gabbsters25 (tagging her so she can read this too). i was honest that i wasn't allowed to talk to you anymore and that i'm not supposed to be on wattpad. if you read my message when i said i was going to be somewhat active, i said that i could not message anyone and that i would read it. the only reason i'm still somewhat active on here is to update people as to what's going on. by the end of the school year, i'm going to be off of this website completely since i'm using my school computer to sneak on. i'm still not talking to anyone on this site because i'm not allowed to, and i feel bad enough not talking to y'all. i honestly am not trying to upset you or make you feel like i lied because it was true. i love you two. i would never want to deceive you. with that said, i'm not going to reply to you two on youtube or here, though i will sometimes comment on your videos like a passerby or an acquaintance. i hope you guys are doing alright, and i know that i hurt you by not telling you i was still on here, and i'm sorry. but i miss you guys; you do know that, right? you were my best friends. i'll never be able to replace y'all. not anyone can be like you. and if you're too upset to read this message, i get it. but just know that i didn't mean to upset you.
hxeryl
@taehcafe i get it. i understand. dia, i love you. i love you and gabbs so much. i hope that one day, we will meet again because time is weird like that. whether it be a reunion or destiny, i hope that i will get to see y'all again. please don't forget me; because i know i won't forget you. thank you for making my life better in the time that we spent together. i hope our friendship wasn't a waste. please don't be disappointed; be happy. know that even when i'm not talking to you, i'm still thinking of you guys. i did think - no, i do think - our friendship was worth it.
hxeryl
@taehcafe i mean, i could. technically, considering that i already sneak on, i could. the reason i don't is kind of simplistic; it just doesn't seem fair to my family. granted, sneaking on wattpad in itself is unfair but it seems a little bit better because the reason i got kicked off in the first place was BECAUSE of messaging people. if i didn't message people, i'd still be allowed on wattpad so that's why i get on and try not to pm people. it's not a matter of "can't do," it's more of a matter of shame and feeling like i'm betraying others i cared about.
taehcafe
i just don’t understand how you can write this, and be active on here even though you’re not allowed to, but you can’t reply to our dms or whatever they’re called on here. you’re already not supposed to be on here, why can’t you talk to us while you are anyway?