i've been so sad lately :( i try really hard to do everything, but some days i just snap like a rubberband and i can't even move. i stare at the wall in my room, stare at the empty word documents in my laptot. my anxiety is so bad these days. and it is beacsue of the school and expectations that i want to desperately fulfill. eff you society and eff your paradigm in which everything needs to be perfect or else i am a failure. i hate this feeling i just wanna rest for a few days please. i know it is impossible, i know it is just a wishful thinking :( and yes, i promise i will write more - i have around 2000 words already, but i just can't force myself to write when i have thousand of other things to do. i am so sorry.