taekook_sbestie

tw: suicide, depression 
          	
          	i came back here after so long and saw that someone had replied to my comment from 2021 in which i had written, “2020 was last year wtf”, and we’re almost past mid 2023 now. the fact that none of my nights used to go without a breakdown and that i almost ended my life in 2018 and 2019 is so crazy to me like how is it 2023 and i am still going and doing so much better?? younger me would’ve never believed if you told her that she’ll get better, that she will not be suicidal anymore, that her depression will lose to her determination and strength. there’s still some darkness around and within me, but that’s just life. I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF AND IDK WHY I’M SOBBING WHILE TYPING THIS ☹️ so, to anyone reading this, this is your sign that it WILL get better, trust me it really will

taekook_sbestie

tw: suicide, depression 
          
          i came back here after so long and saw that someone had replied to my comment from 2021 in which i had written, “2020 was last year wtf”, and we’re almost past mid 2023 now. the fact that none of my nights used to go without a breakdown and that i almost ended my life in 2018 and 2019 is so crazy to me like how is it 2023 and i am still going and doing so much better?? younger me would’ve never believed if you told her that she’ll get better, that she will not be suicidal anymore, that her depression will lose to her determination and strength. there’s still some darkness around and within me, but that’s just life. I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF AND IDK WHY I’M SOBBING WHILE TYPING THIS ☹️ so, to anyone reading this, this is your sign that it WILL get better, trust me it really will

taekook_sbestie

guys, give tips on
          
          1. How to stop comparing your life and yourself with others and their lives?
          2. How to feel motivated to do literally anything? From simple tasks such as cleaning, eating, organising etc to studying, exercising, socialising etc.
          3. How to get rid of habit of constant worrying about, mostly, useless things? 
          4. How to stop being an introvert, especially when you feel comfortable with being an introvert?
          
          I'd reaaalllyyy appreciate even a single reply. Thank you.

taekook_sbestie

@kukkumakku apologies for reading your responses just now, but thank you so much for your insightful and helpful advice. cma is really a difficult course, so i hope that you’re doing well in it while allowing yourself to take well deserved breaks and taking care of yourself. i am assuming you’ve fixed your sleep schedule and other issues in your lifestyle that you had in your mind while writing these replies. if not, then still that’s okay because the thing that matters the most is your effort. even though i don’t read self help books, but as per your recommendation, i’ve added “atomic habits” to my tbr list. tysm again :)
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kukkumakku

@taekook_sbestie  excuse my English, Im not really good at it.
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kukkumakku

Try to make little changes in your lifestyle, which I'm also trying but failing but again trying. My lifestyle especially my sleeping schedule is soo bad. Trust me sleeping is very important. I don't know if it's work for you, but in this journey I have read couple of self help books, I used to hate reading that type of books but they are pretty good. So if you are interested try to "read Atomic habits", "Miracle morning".
            I'm doing this course called cma, which is quite tough, I haven't started studying seriously yet. But I have too, I can't just give up on my dreams. I won't. And I hope you won't too.❤️
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cherrijoong

You there?

taekook_sbestie

@cherrijoong @yoonicatt @erisdgaf 
            Thank you for being the amazing people you are. I don't deserve your care or worry at all but still unintentionally ended up causing you all trouble. I realise that what I do in or with my life isn't anybody's concern and shouldn't be bothersome to anyone. I hope you all have been well and happy that you're worthy of <333
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cherrijoong

@EmoPotatoecx I don't really know- like I am sure that I was the one she followed the last
            But from what I can remember, she followed someone new a while ago- so she might be still here? Idk I'm not sure coz she hasn't replied to my messages yet
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EmoPotatoecx

@cherrijoong omg idk who this is but I was on their profile and im worried now
            did you hear from them?
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taekook_sbestie

this message may be offensive 
OMG OMG I accidentally bumped into this song called "bol hu"(idk I think from Pakistan???), and I don't understand the words being sung, but the 8-year-old kid's part at the end gave me fucking goosebumps. Holy shit that was something else. If you understand music, you'd know why it touched me the way it did. I'm stunned adios!!!
          
          https://youtu.be/KmErtNSs5ak

taekook_sbestie

@NimraSajjad ikr. Like how can you look that 
            smol and then have THAT type, that majestic type, of voice coming out of your mouth. I had my jaw dropped during her whole part.
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NimraSajjad

@taekook_sbestie bol hu literally broke the internet when it came out...I remember how famous it was in Pakistan as well as international media were amazed by the girl...she is a gem of our country ❤❤and her part was indeed something else
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taekook_sbestie

@taekook_sbestie Nevermind it has subtitles  and apparently it's a spiritual song(?) Anyway I loooooove it
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