Maybe have something help with your depression first, be it watching cartoons, drawing or just being alone. Life can be overwhelming sometimes, take some time to yourself and think- "What have been all my successes in life?" And if you can't think of any, then ask yourself "What do I want to be?" Either it being someone who never gives up no matter what life throws at you, or someone who stays down whenever something bad happens in your life
Hope this helps you friend-