How I feel.....
On a good day....

Love what death can touch
A fearful thing
to love, to hope, to dream, to be -
to be,
And oh, to lose.
A thing for fools, this,
And a holy thing,
a holy thing
to love.
laugh once lifted me,
word was gift to me.
To remember this brings painful joy.
Fuck a human thing, fuck love,
fuck a holy thing, and fuck every thing 
what love has touched

How I feel.....
On a bad day....

The birth of my life, if I wished it or no 
No question was asked me--it could not be so ! 
If the life was the question, a thing sent to try 
And to live on is YES; what can NO be ? 

To die. 

NATURE'S ANSWER 

With every breath, life is still living 
But I think first, what you ARE, living or slowly dying! 
Call it what you want but I'm and everyone is dead inside.
I gave them innocence, I gave them hope, 
I Gave health, and my intelligence 
Returned I have, from life nothing but guilt, and despair ? 
I'll die--if dying is what life bring for joy, DIE I dare !