tayr111
it's during a storm (rain, wind, thunder) when i feel most like myself.
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touch me like i'm ur religion & i will pour life into u like a god.
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ik a masc lesbian nvr met a dom femme-leaning lesbian who doesn't treat her with the attitude of a bigotted straight woman when she looks at me wide eyed with her breathing slightly shaky & her lips are parted & i can see in her pupils that she can't control her heartrate.
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flustered kitten, so sweet.
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she has the energy of "lay back, i will take care of it & massage ur back after" that just makes me so down bad & soft for her like i'm over here being wifey for her hot fuckin damnn..
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she is v greatly attracted to me. i'm going to tease her until she can't take it anymore. then take her thru the 7 spiritual stages of alchemical rebirth. then kiss her jugular vein while she is purring against my arm.
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changed my mind no thanks she didn't fully move on from her ex.
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her mars is conjunct my lilith it's lit a goddess-devotee dynamic.
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all search for power is the search for love in the guise of the need for control.
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i'm not attached to any outcome because they are all in my favour.
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one more plot twist before the end of 2025 & it may or may not be me watching myself fall in love with someone i told myself not to get attached to.
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it was. & it has passed now. thank god.
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i want to write a lesbian scorpionic story about sex, love, situationship, healing & human connection. :((
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im in a state of grief rn & processing. i rly lost my spark big time with ppl i thought were going to be long term & i get so tired when i see how much they rewired me, i get pissed that i was able to be influenced & deterred from myself & i am still processing that. im just doing rly low rn & i dont think i want to be in a relationship for a long time. ppl always leave anyways nothing is permenant.i have to keep reminding myself that "i was young and very touchstarved and desperate" and move on. i dont want to make an armour around me that makes things worse by repelling ppl so i try to make friends but they all turn out to be lessons or they turn out to completely distort me. i used to lie about being a libra to make myself more likeable lmao,, i started to remember why i did that. i dont want to be in another relationship for a long time. idc if i look guarded & closed off, im tired. ppl are so fucking full of bullshit.
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i will watch “sinners” again, read frankenstein & wuthering heights without illustrations & reread my academic thesis on gothic literature to soothe myself.