𝓗𝓪𝓵𝓸

It's hard to accept they r gone forever and i never got to say goodbye 
          
          They never get to see me drive or be here when i turn 16 they can't see my accomplishments they cant see how much my drawing and painting improves they wont be here when i graduate and decide if i wanna go to college they cant see what i decide to do when im older they cant see who makes me happy they cant see if i get married or if i adopt kids that would have loved them so much like i did

Im close to just ignoring everyone thh

Im really hoping my girlfriend can't hear me crying 

IT'S 11:11

It's been a long time (abt 4 maybe 5 months)
          And seeing the shape of your name (em)
          Still spells out pain 
          It wasn't right 
          The way it all went down
          Looks like you know that now 
          
          Closure 

My heart, my hips, my body, my love 
          Trying to find a part of me that you didn't touch 
          Gave up on me like I was a bad drug 
          Now I'm searching for signs in a haunted club 
          Our songs, our films, united we stand 
          our country 
          Guess it was a lawless land 
          Quiet my fears with a touch of your hand 
          Paper cut stains from our paper thin plans 
          My time, my wine, my spirit, my trust 
          Trying to find a part of me you didn't take up 
          Gave you too much but it wasn't enough
          But I'll be all right 
          It's just a thousand cuts 
          
          ~Death by a thousand cuts 

I blew things out of proportion 
          now you're blue 
          put you in jail for something you didn't do 
          I pinned your hands behind your back 
          thought I had reason to attack, but no 
          fighting with the true love 
          is boxing with no gloves 
          chemistry 'till blows up till there's no us 
          why do I have to break what I love so much? it's on your face 
          and I'm to blame 
          I need to say 
          hey, it's all me, in my head 
          I'm the one who burned us down 
          but it's not what I meant 
          sorry that I hurt you
          
          ~Afterglow

I said your livin my dream then she said to me hey thank you for the lovely bouquet