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Nicotine teeth, sweet baby I’m your lover
          Would never ever leave you for another
          

And I think I down another whiskey
          and I think I’ll have a heart attack
          Oh but I know one thing 
          I am never coming back 
          
          I have seen too much of this town
          I have seen the mold in the dirt 
          I want to travel far far away
          I don’t want you to be hurt 
          
          Everyone seems so sad
          Everyone seems so sad
          I don’t want to be so sad too
          
          But I would lace my tennis shoes together
          If it meant you would run away with me
          And I wouldn’t peak during hide-and-go-seek 
          If it meant you would run away with me 

my words about to be so raw... get ready 

sitting here trying to string ugly words into pretty sentences is a challenge

I stare at your hands with an insatiable hunger for something neither of us quite understand. They quiver and sweat when I wear my hair like that or when I wear that dress my mother tells me not to. I like that. I miss that. 

the bottom of a swimming pool
          your lungs burn and you wish you could savor the feeling 
          you don’t dare open your eyes as you know you’re not alone
          the insoluble monsters lurk in the crevices of that murky water
          waiting for their chance to lunge at such an innocent thing like you 
          you kaleidoscope of sunlight washing over your body it makes you feel warm
          it imitates the feeling of love
          and you wish you could savor it
          but your body can’t take it any longer and you let out your final breath 
          your final scream for one final chance at a pretty life with pretty things and pretty people 
          it is ear splitting but you’re already six feet under and nobody can hear you
          we aren’t quite sure what happened to your body
          perhaps you went back to the stars where you belong
          perhaps you returned home

sipping sadness through a bendy straw
          feeling its cold bitter demeanor flood through your body leaving you to shiver alone
          little bumps on your skin rise and you keep sipping
          you like the way it makes you look when your finished
          sunken cheeks and dark eyes like a fallen angel or even a risen devil
          you cry more often than you used to 
          maybe it’s because your cat does not like you
          maybe it’s because you don’t know how to love 

cold hands wrap around my neck when I’m all alone 
          get out of me 
          get out of me 
          get out of me

and what is left of me after you finish
          is nothing more than a corpse of bruises and dried tears with a beating heart

I’m not just going to keep you out anymore if you want to be here come and if you don’t leave it’s as simple as that