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Happiness for some people really do not last long. And whenever things started to feel surreal, tragedy after tragedy strikes that leaves you a little too damaged to even recover again. For example, first losing your hopes, then losing your loved ones one by one, losing your academic excellency, then at the end losing yourself entirely enough to not even have the gut to get it back. God be snatching everything away from you like a spoiled child grabbing his toys back. Heard from the scarred texts that when God leaves you empty inside out, where you are truly at the pit of depression and agony, when nobody's even your own self isn't believing your screams for help as if they became toned deaf, everything was to make you stronger. But what if you didnt want to be stronger? What if you are still just a brokem child that never felt protected in your life? What if all you wanted was to be held, protected, arms around you and a peck on your forehead? What if you really dont want to be tested for your strength,  your faith, your patience? What if you just...you just want to curl up in someone's arms and just rest for a bit? This isn't good to give you this much mental pain amd psychological distress, so much so that you feel disgusted by the feeling of sadness itself. Feeling like you're overreacting and really, victimizing you infront of your own self.