the-black-butterfly

New cover for The Butterfly & The Moon ahead of this year's NaNoWriMo. At this point, I make no promises about any actual chapters! I will do my best but who even knows.

Welcome to the first chapter of the brand new TB&TM. I'm excited to share my work with you. https://www.wattpad.com/story/84753325

New chapters coming in December! I am, again, participating in NaNoWriMo and am working every day on my rewrite of TB&TM. There's a lot I'm changing, fixing and polishing and I'm excited to see where my heart wants to take this story...and how! 
          I'm focusing on writing and hitting my daily targets right now but what I am working on will be posted in December. I hope that those of you who found my work before and liked anything of what you read will come along with me again for this rediscovery. Or that I can welcome new readers! That works too. Either way, I remain sorry for letting my writing sort of fall away from me. NaNo reminds me how much I need and love it. 
          Thank you for reading. ♥

After too many months of neglecting my story on here, even though I keep promising myself I will not neglect it any longer, I have decided to unpublish The Butterfly & The Moon.
          
          Just thinking about it now, I can count about five stories I've created for the pure thrill of escapism that have been nearly impossible for me to let go of. I count this one among those for several reasons but of all my pretty little stories, it was this, the sweet fanfic I started writing one lonely autumnal night (after binge-watching AHS for hours) that clung to me more powerfully than any other. 
          I wrote the first few chapters quickly, just for fun. Harmless little romance, total anonymity, no pressure at all, don't care who is reading, care even less who isn't reading
          But then I really fell in love with it. And it turns out I have actually ended up giving a lot of myself to this story, way more than I planned. In return, it has rewarded me so beautifully, in ways that have not always been easy. I've tried to embrace the dark with the light. Regardless, I haven't been able to let it go and I find I still really don't want to. But I can't let it linger unfinished anymore, I just can't. 
          
          So, for the last time, here's what I'm going to do. Fix it, shine it up, restore it to glory, pour myself into it, probably let it torture me a little...
          ...Most importantly, I'm going to finish it and then, for the sake of completion and closure, I'm going to let it go. 
          
          The beginning. ♥ ♥

Hi everyone, just posting to let you know I'm still here and that I've been playing around with the cover of TB&TM instead of, you know, actually writing it. My intention is to come back to everything I wrote late last year for NaNoWriMo and actually get the chapters I have saved edited once and for all and then posted. If I put it out there that I plan to do this, there may be more chance of it actually happening but who knows...
          
          Anyway, the cover has had a pretty, 'warm' update which I may still experiment with. And hopefully the writing will follow.

Are you ready for a very long chapter that is dense with dialogue between two characters in particular? A chapter I wrote the bulk of over the last week? What if I tell you I cried twice while writing it because I have many feelings? What if I tell you it's over 13500 words long and there aren't any sex scenes? Haha, nooo, you fickle perverts, come back, don't run away, I thrive on your attention! 
          Anyway if that's what you're ready for, it's just as well because that's what you're getting quite soon. 
          Huge thank you for 4K reads/views. I did type a heartfelt message of thanks for that but Wattpad ate it and I didn't have the time or energy to rewrite it. But I noticed and it's lovely and it really matters to me. 
          And I was just joking about you being a bunch of perverts by the way. Sort of.  ♥

I am almost sobbing in frustration!! Okay, I'm exaggerating, probably. I'm having serious technical issues with the chapter I just posted and it's driving me batshit insane. I'm trying to fix it so I don't keep losing entire paragraphs and edits and things but it keeps switching back to old versions and I'm ready to throw things at this point. 
          I feel murderous. But anyway...hello, Wattpad. Hello to all of you. Can you believe I disappear for months and months and then just turn up like this with 12,000 words worth of "chapter" and some complaints? The nerve. Well, there we are. 
          You are officially notified of my long overdue update and informed of my current state of serious irritation. 
          I hope you enjoy it. Thank you. ♥

So...hi. 
          Just poking my head around the virtual door of this place and letting anyone who cares know that I'm alive. I will continue writing and one day even finish this story, I promise. I don't know when but I will not half-ass TB&TM, ever. I leave it alone for weeks and weeks and it turns to months and I know I'm not consistent at all but despite my absence and my neglect here, this is still a story I want to tell because I love it dearly and passionately. 
          
          So. I am just promising any and all who have ever read my work and maybe still care to in the future that I am sorry for how bad I am at keeping you interested. And that a part of me IS still in Paris. And that I will not leave my love story unfinished. 
          
          Thank you so much for the support so far. I will try to update soon...ish.

I know. I haven’t updated since just before Christmas. I know. 
          But. I’m nearly there with the next chapter. Nearly... 
          I still don’t want to say when it’ll be posted but it’s coming. I just thought I’d say something because it’s annoying me that I haven’t returned in so long. I don’t want anyone to think I’ve abandoned my story here. I write nearly every single day, I have to, it keeps me sane. That said, I only sit down and work on this one if I’m going to give it all I have and I actually haven’t had all of what I have lately. If that makes any sense. Things have been busy and weird. 
          Anyway. I’m here and it’s close. Ish. Maybe. I hope. 
          Thank you for your attention, you may return to your lives now. 

Ha! 3K views/reads!! Well that was a sweet little surprise to log in and see tonight! Thank you to all my readers for pushing TB&TM to this milestone, it's a really cool feeling and has given me something to smile about for sure. I like knowing you're there even if you're not voting or leaving comments, haha. 
          I am still working on the next chapter and it will be posted as soon as it is right. Thank you very,  very much for reading this labour of love of mine and here's to 3K more! ♥