the8buddy

I had to take a deep breath before starting to type this…It’s been a while since I’ve been here, ever since I lost someone very dear to me.
          	These past few weeks have felt incredibly heavy, like life has been rougher with me than ever before. I miss him so much. In ways I can't always put into words. And sometimes it feels like there's this empty space inside me that nothing really fills. 
          	I’m still in the process of finding my way back to myself, slowly, carefully. Some days I stumble, but some days I breathe a little easier too. 
          	Even now, as I’m writing this, my heart is beating so fast. I wish I could turn time back. I wish I could stop him from riding his motorcycle that morning. I wish I could have done something, anything, to change what happened.
          	I don’t think I’ll ever truly heal from losing him. I don’t think grief like this ever leaves you. I think you just learn, somehow, painfully and slowly, to live with the emptiness. To get used to the feeling of them not being here anymore. And even that feels impossible sometimes.
          	There are moments when I feel like I don’t belong anywhere, like I’m moving through life with a piece of my heart missing. Grief has a way of making even familiar places feel foreign. And while people around me move on with their days, it often feels like I’m standing still, carrying something invisible but unbearably heavy.
          	
          	But through it all, I've been thinking about this place, about all of you. I miss being here. I miss writing, updating my books, about the way writing always made me feel a little more alive. I miss it. I miss you. I miss everything we built together through these stories. It feels strange not to have been around, like another part of me was put on pause.
          	
          	I will come back.
          	Maybe slowly, maybe not all at once, but I will.
          	Writing has always been a part of me, and I don’t want to lose that too.
          	Thank you for being here. For waiting. For caring.
          	You mean more to me than you probably know.
          	I love you all.

letsdie_17

@the8buddy gosh, just logged in and read about this. you, your close-ones and his family have my condolences. 
          	  may he finds peace and rests well. god's with him. and also praying for strength for you and your family. 
          	  don't blame yourself too much, he wouldn't have liked it too. a piece of him will always be remembered in different versions of your and everyone's memories around him. 
          	  
          	  i won't say it would get better, but it would get different, in a good way. trust me it does. the void never goes but it does pain less over time. 
          	  
          	  i miss you too. will wait to hear a word from you, again.
          	  hope you and your close-ones heal well. 
          	  love you, buddy.
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daisynchronized

God, I'm so sorry for your loss and everything negative that's been happening around you lately. I really really wish I could just reach through the screen and pull you into a big warm hug. Take your time, precious. Some people leave a void so deep, it's hard for it to be filled ever again. I have lived through that, trust me I see you. But we learn to live with it overtime, learn to accept it, to be thankful that things were once the way they used to be. It's not wrong or anything bad in the way you feel or think right now, but i really hope you know it wasn't your fault. And i hope you know you're loved. I don't know you personally but I can just feel that pure soul energy radiating off you though you're oceans away from me, and i really really love so many things about you. Heal well. And when you do, I'd still be waiting here. He'd be too, maybe not in the form you'd want him to, but somewhere in the air or the raindrops, I'm sure he'd be smiling when he sees you do the same.
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whostolemychild

@the8buddy oh author :(( grief really is hard.. and we all deal with it differently. and i do believe too that grief never really leaves you, it just teaches you how to be strong and how to handle life without that certain person. it is hard but i hope you won't come to the point where you're blaming yourself over what happened to him, it was no ones fault and things just really happen, it takes a turn where we just least expected it you know?
          	  
          	  grieving really is hard and it is important that we don't rush ourselves as it is one of the processes where time would be the one doing its thing. i hope you heal from all this happenings and know that whatever you are feeling is valid. you don't have to think about writing too much but if it gives you comfort then go ahead and do it, but we will alwaysss wait for you author. 
          	  
          	  no matter what happens, please dont forget to take good care of yourself, you deserve love too. be strong and think about the good memories, instead of the bad ones, im sure thats what he would've wanted :))
          	  
          	  always here for you author, come back whenever you're ready. sending loves <3
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KirthikaNadar

 Hey buddy 
          I write with a heart heavy in knowing the sorrow that now shadows your days. To lose one so dearly held is to feel the world tilt slightly off its axis, and no arrangement of words can ever quite bridge the silence left in their absence. Still, I offer you my deepest condolences, though they feel so small beside your grief.
          
          May time, that quiet and tireless healer, tend gently to your spirit. And may solace, however fleeting at first find its way to you in the stillness of the days to come. Please, do not feel compelled to answer until the weight begins to lessen, even if just imperceptibly. There is no virtue in rushing healing, no shame in needing time.
          
          Grant yourself the mercy of rest, the permission to unravel and slowly weave yourself whole again. You owe the world nothing right now, only yourself, and the fragile, necessary work of healing. I am here, patiently and quietly, should you ever need a voice beyond your own. Until then, may grace hold you where words cannot.

kpop_core12

Hey, love sorry for being late but I hope you are not stressing yourself too much☹️. It's so hard and difficult to bear with the loss of somebody so close to us but look at you being so strong, bearing like a strong girl. Life can be pretty hard and rough but I hope you are taking care of yourself too, because your health is the top priority.
          
          Also, you don't need to rush things, we are always here for you no matter what ^⁠_⁠^. Every book has a chapter like this but it also passes with time and happy moments also do comes. I am glad you can heal from writing, and we support you with all our hearts❤️. 
          
          We miss you more, and take all the time you want coz you deserve it. 
          Love you!❤️

-Pixie0pie-

Hey love, first of all I'm so so so sorry for being here late, I'm sorry I didn't make it here earlier and I just really hope that you're feeling much better right now.
          You came here, after so much time, to make this announcement and I thought that you'd be back, happy and healthy but after I read it fully, istg I was going to cry because I just remembered my own past, those haunting and traumatizing memories. I know how it feels to lose someone you loved so dearly, someone you cherished so deeply, and wanted them to stay forever.
          My heart is heavy and filled with deep sorrow as I'm writing this to you. I'm so sorry to hear about the loss of the person you so deeply loved. I can feel your pain, I really do and I want you to know that it isn't your fault that you couldn't stop them. What had to happen already happened, so don't blame yourself. You should know that I'll be here for you, always.
          I know that person was more than anything to you; they were a source of love, comfort, and strength. I know it's hard to forget when the person meant so much to you. Their presence will be deeply missed, but you need to know that their love, support and legacy will live on through you.
          As you're going through this difficult time, I want you to know that you're not alone. I'm here. Infact we all are here, to listen, to cry with you, or to simply provide you support. If there's anything you want to talk about, if your heart ever feels heavy or whenever you're overwhelmed, know that I'm here, always available to talk.

-Pixie0pie-

Take all the time you need to grieve, to process your emotions, and to heal. It's okay to feel the weight of your loss, and it's okay to take things one step at a time. You'll get through this, even when it feels impossible.
            You're strong, resilient, and loved. They may be gone, but their love and impact will stay with you forever. I'll be here, holding that special spot for you in my heart, and sending all my love.
            And most importantly, please take care of yourself,  no need to rush things. I know you're having a hard time but being harsh on yourself isn't going to do you any good, it'll make things worse. I'm worried for you, I couldn't stop thinking after reading the  announcement. I had to write this to you, just for a reminder that you will never be alone. There are people who love you, I love you, your followers love you. 
            You just need to prioritize yourself for now, no work, only rest. Just take a break, to process everything. Sometimes, that's all you need to do.
            Remember that they won't be happy if they saw you being so hard on yourself. They'd like to see you being happy. So smile for them and take care of yourself. 
            Once again, I'm saying, I'll be here if you need it.
            So take care, love.
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the8buddy

I had to take a deep breath before starting to type this…It’s been a while since I’ve been here, ever since I lost someone very dear to me.
          These past few weeks have felt incredibly heavy, like life has been rougher with me than ever before. I miss him so much. In ways I can't always put into words. And sometimes it feels like there's this empty space inside me that nothing really fills. 
          I’m still in the process of finding my way back to myself, slowly, carefully. Some days I stumble, but some days I breathe a little easier too. 
          Even now, as I’m writing this, my heart is beating so fast. I wish I could turn time back. I wish I could stop him from riding his motorcycle that morning. I wish I could have done something, anything, to change what happened.
          I don’t think I’ll ever truly heal from losing him. I don’t think grief like this ever leaves you. I think you just learn, somehow, painfully and slowly, to live with the emptiness. To get used to the feeling of them not being here anymore. And even that feels impossible sometimes.
          There are moments when I feel like I don’t belong anywhere, like I’m moving through life with a piece of my heart missing. Grief has a way of making even familiar places feel foreign. And while people around me move on with their days, it often feels like I’m standing still, carrying something invisible but unbearably heavy.
          
          But through it all, I've been thinking about this place, about all of you. I miss being here. I miss writing, updating my books, about the way writing always made me feel a little more alive. I miss it. I miss you. I miss everything we built together through these stories. It feels strange not to have been around, like another part of me was put on pause.
          
          I will come back.
          Maybe slowly, maybe not all at once, but I will.
          Writing has always been a part of me, and I don’t want to lose that too.
          Thank you for being here. For waiting. For caring.
          You mean more to me than you probably know.
          I love you all.

letsdie_17

@the8buddy gosh, just logged in and read about this. you, your close-ones and his family have my condolences. 
            may he finds peace and rests well. god's with him. and also praying for strength for you and your family. 
            don't blame yourself too much, he wouldn't have liked it too. a piece of him will always be remembered in different versions of your and everyone's memories around him. 
            
            i won't say it would get better, but it would get different, in a good way. trust me it does. the void never goes but it does pain less over time. 
            
            i miss you too. will wait to hear a word from you, again.
            hope you and your close-ones heal well. 
            love you, buddy.
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daisynchronized

God, I'm so sorry for your loss and everything negative that's been happening around you lately. I really really wish I could just reach through the screen and pull you into a big warm hug. Take your time, precious. Some people leave a void so deep, it's hard for it to be filled ever again. I have lived through that, trust me I see you. But we learn to live with it overtime, learn to accept it, to be thankful that things were once the way they used to be. It's not wrong or anything bad in the way you feel or think right now, but i really hope you know it wasn't your fault. And i hope you know you're loved. I don't know you personally but I can just feel that pure soul energy radiating off you though you're oceans away from me, and i really really love so many things about you. Heal well. And when you do, I'd still be waiting here. He'd be too, maybe not in the form you'd want him to, but somewhere in the air or the raindrops, I'm sure he'd be smiling when he sees you do the same.
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whostolemychild

@the8buddy oh author :(( grief really is hard.. and we all deal with it differently. and i do believe too that grief never really leaves you, it just teaches you how to be strong and how to handle life without that certain person. it is hard but i hope you won't come to the point where you're blaming yourself over what happened to him, it was no ones fault and things just really happen, it takes a turn where we just least expected it you know?
            
            grieving really is hard and it is important that we don't rush ourselves as it is one of the processes where time would be the one doing its thing. i hope you heal from all this happenings and know that whatever you are feeling is valid. you don't have to think about writing too much but if it gives you comfort then go ahead and do it, but we will alwaysss wait for you author. 
            
            no matter what happens, please dont forget to take good care of yourself, you deserve love too. be strong and think about the good memories, instead of the bad ones, im sure thats what he would've wanted :))
            
            always here for you author, come back whenever you're ready. sending loves <3
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whostolemychild

hello author!!! i just came across your profile today and saw all of the messages ppl left here including yours. i know things may be hard right now and I won't say that i understand because honestly, we all cope with stuff differently so it's nearly impossible to understand how everyone is feeling.
          
          but I'd like to remind you that you have us, and we are all here wishing for you to feel better. i hope you'd take no rush about the stories you've made here. it is okay for you to rest and think about yourself because we all need that every once in a while.
          
          take as much time as you need, health and yourself comes first :)) i hope, may it be slowly, that everything goes better for you  always here for you author

the8buddy

Hey beautiful, thank you so much for your kind words. It makes my heart so full knowing I have such amazing people like you supporting me and reminding me that it’s okay to take my time. I’m really focusing on healing right now, step by step, and your patience and understanding make it all feel a little less heavy.
            
            Thank you for being here, for your kindness, and for all the love you’re sending my way. I’m sending it right back to you ♡
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jassmineehh

Hello,
          I feel like I’m really late but I’ve been dealing with my own stuff bc my childhood dog passed away and I’m not trying to compare situations but I’m praying for the both of us, we’ll get through ittt :’) 
          
          Miss you and hope you’re doing well, we’re all here waiting for you whenever you decide to come back, which is when you’re 110% feeling better!

the8buddy

Hey love. First of all, I’m so sorry to hear about your dog…that kind of loss cuts so deep, and no matter what, grief is grief. It’s never a comparison. I’m sending you so much love and a big hug. We’re definitely in this together, and you’re right, we’ll get through it, little by little. Please take care of yourself too, okay? You’re not alone either ♡
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shhey12

hey buddy,
          we just hit 100k on ftly so proud of youu<3
           I hope you are taking rest, or whatever you need most right now. No pressure at all—just know you’re missed, appreciated, and supported. Can’t wait to see you back when you’re ready.
          
          take care of yourself.

the8buddy

Hey dear! Thank you so much, it means the world to me. Take care too ♡
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