After a little over a year and a half after my first romantic relationship I'm looking back and I was terrible at it, definitely improved at the second one but that was not good for different reasons, gaslighting emotional abuse never letting me talk ect ect, so if anyone was affected or connected to either relationship but especially the first one (it was on here), I'm sorry if I made anyone uncomfortable or portrayed negative feelings or similar things, I wasn't in a good headspace, I had just figured out I was trans and slowly getting out of a very bad two and a half year depression streak, along with me getting into my 'cringy kid's faze, those aren't excuses but so anyone around me at the time can understand why I acted like that or said those things, I am very sorry and I've been working on myself, and I don't know how to fix what I did, unfortunately at the hight of it I lost my first account and I don't know where or when it all happened, if I negatively affected you I want to apologize, you don't need to forgive me, I just can't keep not even talking to myself about how I acted, it was also not just around romantic relationships (obviously) but also platonic relationships, I hadn't had friends until that point and I didn't know how to act, again not a excuse, but I did things that even though at the time and now no one blamed me for, even though it was 100% my fault, and I know this doesn't fix it, I just don't know what to do to even try and fix it, if there's anything that would even come close to fixing it
