Hey everybody !
It's nothing much , but i just wanted to say something out here , something I've been feeling and wanted to let people here know , I just couldn't get it out though.. I've had this problem keeping my feelings and emotions packed in and not share them with anyone , and past few weeks I've been avoiding self talks as well , used to journal and haven't been doing that too....
I've been having suicidal thoughts and I don't know why am I even saying this here , I doubt it's even allowed to say things like this out loud here ... These are triggering words and thoughts that aren't supposed to be said to others .. because it might cause a wrong influence on them ... But... I'm it anyway ...
I'm stuck , really am , and this void feels endless and I think ending things might just make it right ... But there are other things , people's that hold me back from taking that selfish step ... They tie me down from ruining things further , ... And it's already been established that I'm no good for anybody and no one really needs me .. never will , it's just my parents are stuck with worrying for me , well 'cause they are parents ... And i am a huge disappointment to them .... I'm not liking things as they are at the moment ... Am really trying , i am .. but yk sometimes it gets a little too much to cope with ... And this feels like it ... I just hope that this feeling might go away one day , and I'll be looking forward to that day ... I'll have to make it to that day , even if it means i die little by little every moment I'm living and am alive.
Gosh I , I ramble so much ... anywho...
Adios!
