Aight I'm having a rant. Id do this on my Tumblr but he follows me so that's impossible. I mean he follows me here as well but he barely ever comes online so I should be good.
Anyway to get to the point, it's the stereotypical scenario, gay guy has a crush on his best friend, Me being the gay guy. This guy is all I have and I really like him but he's aromantic. So. I can't actually tell if I like him platonically or romantically because I don't actually know the difference anymore. For all I know, I just like him as a really close friend because I've never actually been as close to anyone else as I have to him.
But I hope he knows that if he takes me to a cute field and paints my nails, and picks me flowers, and braids flowers into my hair, and lets me borrow his pastel pink hoodie, and hugs me so right and says I smell really nice (it's not weird unless you make it), and lets me fall asleep in his arms while he sings to me and kisses me on the forehead, I will fall from him.
I just wish it didn't hurt this much.
Please help. Idk what to do. Last time I told him I liked him, before I knew he was aro, he said he liked me back, only for two days later, he said it was platonic all along. I don't wanna get friend zoned again but I have to tell him be cause I can't deal with this. I'm struggling so bad.
Send help. I'm suffering.
Ahhhhhhh
