you ever miss someone so much that your replay how you used to talk about them then almost break down cause you messed up but can't since you're sick and never don't want to have a panic attack since your crying causes your nose to be congested, which already is from being sick and you can't breath properly and it makes you feel claustrophobic as hell cause you can't break properly from the amount of mucus so youre just trying to hold it all in..?