☆val satella☆

December 1st is approaching. do y'all want TDROW or not.

So my mom wants the school to get me a tutor from my class to catch me up on schoolwork that I’ve missed while I was sick with pneumonia (I still am)
          
          She’s mad at me because I don’t want one.
          
          I don’t need a tutor.
          I don’t need to feel any less intelligent than I already do.
          I’m not failing my classes.
          I’m excelling. 
          But apparently I’m not excelling enough for her.
          My peers go on about report card scores.
          Test scores.
          Who got the highest.
          Who won the prize.
          My friends talk about who the smartest in our friend group is.
          My father tells me to be better.
          My mother implies that I can’t.
          It doesn’t hurt them.
          They don’t care.
          But I do.
          I care so much it hurts.
          I cried the first time I got more than four answers wrong on a test.
          That was in grade five.
          I cried when my abuser pointed out how bad I was doing in school.
          That was in grade four.
          I cried when I didn’t get top five in the hardest math test for intermediate students.
          That was in grade seven.
          
          I cry when that one girl always beats me academically but then encourages me.
          I cry when I think I do bad on a presentation.
          I cry when I get what I think is a bad mark on a test.
          I cry whenever I get a new assignment.
          I cry whenever it’s too easy and that’s why I fail.
          I cry inside.
          I cry in my room.
          I cry next to the knife block in my kitchen.
          I cry at night.
          I cry at school.
          But I never cry in front of people.
          Because I can never let them know that the second best girl thinks she’s the worst. 
          
          And no mom, I don’t need a tutor.
          They wouldn’t be able to get one from my class anyways.
          I’m the best.
          The best of my class.
          But not the best of my grade.

favourite characters check (I tried to only use the characters once but court is here twice bc I love her):
          
          dead character: jason dean
          
          video game character: cora madden 
          
          tv show character: max mayfield
          
          movie character: inigo montoya
          
          book character: (I have so many so this is just current) maia tamarin
          
          musical character: veronica sawyer
          
          character that you started liking as a kid: meilin teng (there’s also lots for this section, but she’s from a kids series so…)
          
          comfort character: courtney
          
          kinnie character: courtney 
          
          badass: becca prescott (she gains from others deaths lol I love her)
          
          silly: yeona jeung
          
          character that you low-key hate yet is still a favourite: duncan 
          
          smol one: rue
          
          oc: claudia cardinal
          
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          someone give me more categories bc I have more favourite characters who need to be honoured

So after Miss Americana my dad and I watched the Rush R40 documentary (Time Stand Still) so @TrixieGrey27 I hope you’re proud

a bunch of my friends on here r doing hear me out cakes so I'm gonna go do that and pray my school doesn't find out when I suddenly download a bunch of pictures of hot fictional characters

YALL I CONVINCED MY DAD TO WATCH MISS AMERICANA WITH ME
          
          IVE INFECTED HIM
          
          HES TURNING INTO A SWIFTIE

Bark

Random shit that none of you will understand:
          
          Dakari: How high are you? 
          Kiara: Mm, I don’t know how to say it in feet. 
          Crystal: No, they’re asking what drugs are you on. 
          Kiara: Oh, antidepressants, why?
          
          -kiara, babes, I know u have issues but antidepressants WILL make them worse <3
          
          Dakari: *venting endlessly to Cora about their week* 
          Cora, every once in a while: *in a monotone* Wow, that is so wild.
          
          Taylor: I’m Bisexual and confused. 
          Taylor: Not at the fact that I’m a Bisexual, I just never know what the FUCK is going on.
          
          -me too taylor 
          
          Sarah: I didn’t even realize how sarcastic I was being. It’s starting to become a problem, I think.
          
          -NO WONDER NO ONE EVER TALKS TO HER- (I’m sorry, that was rude)
          
          Sarah: You know, there’s something weird going on with your face? 
          Yvonne: What? 
          Sarah: You’re smiling! I didn’t know you could do that?
          
          -PFFT. (canon)
          
          Emery: I’m terrible at expressing myself. 
          Crystal: Don’t worry, actions speak louder than words! 
          Emery: Yes, but my actions are also bad.
          
          -look the magic weirdos are talking
          
          Iris: Baby vibes... hold gentle... like hamburger. 
          Yronica: Punt like football.
          
          Kyle: You need to stop swearing so much. 
          Sanjana: Shut the fuck up. 
          Kyle: Yeah, that's not how you do it. 
          Sanjana: Alright sorry. It's just that it's hard not to swear. The words just creep up on me when I least expect it. 
          Kyle: Now now, don't be like that. Just replace the swear words with 'beep' and you'll be fine. 
          Sanjana: Shit the beep up. 
          Kyle: 
          Sanjana: SHUT, DAMMIT! I MEANT SHUT!
          
          Yan, holding a box of Lunchables: Ah, I loved these when I was your age… fine dining. 
          Yvonne: Fix yourself.
          
          -yan. honey. ur a rich bitch. eat like it.
          
          Yeona: What are you up to today? 
          Jack: Nothing. 
          Yeona: But you did that yesterday! 
          Jack: I wasn’t finished.
          
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          Ok I’m done annoying y’all now.

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