@sley_sha you don't know the way I smiled after reading this. And you know about the emotionally unexpressive part, almost like 95% of the people I know are like that, and I'll continue to give, I'll continue to support, even if they don't reciprocate, because I know what it's like to not be able to express how you feel, because you think your emotions are invalid, and even if I'm able to reach out to one of them, even if my words make a difference to one person, my purpose will be fulfilled. As for the trusting part, I don't know. I really don't. It's just the way you write, your author's notes, the depth of your words, all of it, mends a part of me I didn't know was broken. You know when you express your insecurities, your self doubts in those notes, I feel like it's me speaking, because I've felt the same way sometimes. And talking to you makes me feel like I'm reassuring myself too, that everything will be fine. Because there's never been anyone to console me, and I cannot see that happen to someone else on my watch. I don't know if we know each other, i really don't. Maybe we already know each other, maybe we saw each other in some mama ke chacha ke bua ki beti ki shadi, or maybe we live in two different corners of the world. All I do know is I feel some sort of connection to you, to your work. And i know that fear of not being able to love as much, or loving too much, but just talking to you here is enough for me, that's all I want. You don't have to apologise, even if you hadn't replied, I would've still kept commenting, still kept asking, because even if a single sentence could give you a little bit of assurance, even if you didn't have the motivation to text back, atleast I'd know I tried.
And i love you too. I forever will. (Platonically don't get me wrong didi)
