Victoria

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HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!! I HOPE YOU HAD AN AMAZING DAY AND GOT SUPER FAT.

“the sky's beauty is amazing
          not just for the fact that all the colors
          look gorgeous together
          but the beauty is in wondering if
          your future lover is staring at the
          sky at the same very moment as you.”

I went to a visitation for someone I've known my whole life. And maybe I didn't talk to her every year, but she made up a huge part of my childhood. And so going to her visitation, and meeting with her grandkids again, people who I used to hang out with all the time, and one of them I used to argue with all the time. But it really made me stop and realize that life flies past us, in the blink of an eye.
          So if you're hurting someone, or putting them through hell, just let them go. Or if you are getting put through hell, dump their ass, because they aren't worth your time. Life is so short, that you should say what you want, and never break hearts. Be the person you'd be proud for your children to be. 
          "Death  stings the victim once. But keeps stinging the people who loved the victim, over and over again."

Some people aren't meant to know everything about you, and some just don't even care.
          Be careful who you talk to.

I wanted to wish y'all a safe and happy Independence Day!!
          Happy Birthday 'Murica. 

If I could tell you all one thing, that is never ever pour everything you have into someone. Always think about yourself, while thinking about them at the same time. 
          Whether its the boy you fell too hard for, or the girl who you so desperately want to be friends with.
          Sometimes you need to check yourself, because if you try to make someone happy, it doesn't work.
          I once put my happiness into someone and that lead me to crying every night, and popping too many pills, cutting my skin because he loved someone else, never being secure unless the person told me I was beautiful. I got everything from them, that I needed.
          One of my weaknesses that I am trying to fix that I beg all of you to not fall to the same thing. I get too attached to people. And to fix that I now try to distance myself from people. But I always find myself coming back to the people that hurt me.
          That was the thing I couldn't go one day without talking to a certain person, but they could go days without talking to me. I was always the one who had to make the conversation.
          I get too attached, while the people I get attached too are always attached to someone else.
          Please never make the same mistakes as me. Don't sit on your bed at 4am wondering if you're finally gunna die from all the pills, or laying down crying at 2am wondering if the heartbreak will just kill you.
          I'm done.
          I'm not cut out for this. I'm not perfect. I will never be.
          If it finally works this time don't cry because I'm gone. Smile and be happy since I'm gone. I'll finally be gone from this life of incredible horrors.
          Stay strong, you can win any battle life throws at you.
          Me?
          I'm laying down my armor, gladly be taken by the hands of death.
          Maybe death will erase everything I have ever felt.
          I don't care if I burn in hell. It would be better than this torture that I'm going through.
          Darling, keep your head up, you're beautiful and amazing.
          Looks like my story might end a little too soon.....
          Goodbye.
          -V.M.

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