theloverboyisdead

Hhhhhh are  we  going  to  do  this

theloverboyisdead

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I haven't done deep shit since may but fuck it we gonna do it 
          
          
          I really want to check on someone but I don't know how to do it we haven't talked in forever but they are someone who has largely impacted my life. I dont even know how to start the convo because they probably fucking hate me. I know they aren't okay but like idk I want to give them somewhere to vent. And they also were there for me a few years ago when deep shit happened and I dont know if I've even close to repayed that. I really fucking miss them and if they see this they'll probably say "oh well I'm pretty sure you could have just messaged me" but I was scared to idk why but I am that's just me. I also don't want to be the person who only checks in if something seems wrong it just makes me feel like absolute shit like oh you care now but what about all the times I might have been going through but didnt say anything. 
          
          Fuck what do I do.
          
          I put this on here like anyone's going to see it or try and help despite that never happening. Oh well I'll just sleep on it I guess.
          
          And to that person I'm sorry if you feel neglected I dont mean to. Truly i am sorry.