I do not know how to say this but I need some... help/advice?
Throughout April I’ve given entrance exams for colleges (at least 1 exam per week). The results have not come yet, so I don’t know whether I got in or not, but I don’t think I got a good enough seat. There are six exams I need to give in May.
And I don’t want to. I don’t know why, but I’m scared. I want to go to college, but I’m scared that I won’t clear these exams and it’s killing me from the inside. I haven’t studied since a week because I feel that if I don’t study and give the exam, and get low marks, it’s gonna hurt less than actually studying 100% and STILL not passing the exam.
Everything I do, every second I breathe, I feel guilty for not studying—but when I open a book I just feel... numb? I know what I need to do BUT it just feels impossible.
Has anyone ever gone through this? (Especially during entrance exams?) How did you overcome this situation? And even if you didn’t go through this, just tell me something, anything, because I really, really need help!