thiccthighs19
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Rant- T/W: sexual assault.
i was, i am a victim of sexual assault. told nobody about this except only one human on this earth. my stepfather whom I considered my everything, did me dirty. though he's the second person doing so to me. there was this husband of my music teacher and at that period i was like 10-12 years old, that old man nearly gave me a punishment for refusing to do what he asked for. he used to sniff me off everytime I had to go into his fucking room to learn an instrument. now you maybe why I had to go? my stepfather legit told me to beg for his forgiveness infront of everyone because I didn't do what he asked for. now wanna know what did he ask? he asked for my consent to eat me out. yeah to taste my pussy. and it goes like "you look cute i wanna taste that pussy can I?" taking consent from a 10 year old, so sweet.
growing up i felt like I have been only used in my entire life either physically or mentally. what I did wrong was to stay quiet but if you think from my pov, I told a friend that I was being sexually assualted my by music teacher. she said she would hand me to the police if I spread this rumours. fucking rumors. is it my fault now? and for my father, I have seen my mother getting devastated after my biological father abused her, she had no option but to leave him. she was finally happy with my stepfather but I became the problem now. if I tell her everything happening to me, she'll start losing herself. ik sounds lame. but my stepdad became the only reason for her to live, but if I make a wrong move, I'll lose both of them. there are times I feel like I should stop surviving, it feels like it'll be the only way to stop everything. fun fact dad doesn't do shit to his biological daughter, his hands shake while touching her. i don't even know what should I do anymore... losing hope each minute...
Periwinkle_Princess
@thiccthighs19 I know just realized your stepfather was doing this. Snitch. Just do it. Your mother will be hurt, but she will be devastated if you let it continue and she finds out another way, thinking you don't value yourself, or she is to blame, or, well you get the idea. Just do it. It will be hard at first, but it'll get better.
Periwinkle_Princess
@thiccthighs19 Wow is all I can say. As a fellow victim, though admittedly not to that extent and not so young (12/13 for me), I offer my apologies. I know it's taboo to talk about this kind of stuff and so we keep quiet, but we need to talk about these things. If you don't want to talk to your parents, talk to someone else about it, and if no one else, the internet (and a journal, if you wish) is always here. And some advice: don't accept/apolgize for the SA. I know it will have repurcussions, but the ones you would have gotten from doing it are far worse and the self-validation you get from refusing is worth it, Lots of love, a fellow human being.
AarohiKhanB
@thiccthighs19 And that music teacher, shame on him!! And on your step father!!! I also faced some kind of assault (not to this extent), but the trauma is bigggg. Make sure you have someone you can rely on and share everything. Please take care
