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Hi guys. I’ve never written a note here but I will now cause I’m not updating a chapter now and I have something to share with you.
I just got out of the cardiologist and my heart is not okay… I need surgery, like actual surgery and I’m in shock. Like I feel numb but at the same time I want to cry? I didn’t have it in me to say anything about my bulimia and ask if that could be a factor to my condition cause my parents were there and they don’t know. But part of me knows it is.
Fuck, like idk what to do, is so funny that the only thing that almost made me cried was when she said “you can’t exercise.” And I asked not even walk ? And my dad went NO, really seriously. She said that there’s a chance it could be open heart surgery… I hope it won’t.
I will keep you guys updated, love you all so much. Nat