@thisfangirlwrites
How many people actually want me to update any of my fanfics? If so, which one? Or would you like me to make a new fanfic? I have tons of drafts that i never get to post here bc I'm unsure of the kind of plot that i have in mind will turn out the way i want it to be.
Hello fellow phandom lover XP
I'm so upset that someone has the heart to lie to his fans. I don't know if it's the truth but i came across someone's claims that he has been fibbing about his "illness". I refuse to believe it. But if it's true that you lie, I just want to thank you for making me happy in the past 6 months. You're like a brother to me. There are other ways of gaining people's affection. But not this. You don't know what it's like to have the illness. I truly wish you the best of luck for your future. You'll do great.
Regarding "Saving Calvin":
I'm truly sorry for the lack of commitment towards writing this fanfic. I have a draft and it is less than 100 words and I'm still stuck. It is like a filler chapter and I feel that I'm not doing myself justice for that chapter. Inspiration is almost non-existent at the moment. The only way to get inspired is by watching Calvin's broadcasts; as you can tell I include details or things that you can observe from his broadcasts into this fanfic. I tried to catch up by binge watching the broadcasts but i still find myself out of the loop. The inside jokes that are being said in the chats or even in the comments section makes me feel that I'm a fake fan. I'm trying to pull myself together. There's college to deal with and I'm not a healthy person. So I find it a tad difficult to spend hours on writing fanfic. Who knows maybe one day I might just write really short chapters? Do I have to write for the sake of posting regularly? I don't even know. Have a great day people and stay alive please.