I want to be in a relationship. I know boys are stupid. I know I am young. I know it probably won't work out. But if I hear that one more time I will rip my brain out and throw it in a lake. Everything is surrounded around relationships. Social Media, Movies, Books, Gossip, your everyday life, and I get serious fomo(fear of missing out)when I don't have that. My friends have all had something, whether it's a relationship, talking stage, kiss. I have had NOTHING! My love life is inexistent. You have NO right act like I am wrong for wanting something when you have got to have it. No right. I had a friend today tell me that I need to love myself before I get into a relationship. I 100% agree, but I am insulted because you insinuated I am not happy with myself. I know who I am, even if I am still growing as a person. I have hobbies and interests. But can I not be a strong independent young woman AND be (or want to be) in a relationship, even if I am only 17? I know it might not work out, but I WANT to be able to experience everything. I graduate next year and I have yet to live my life fully. And to be honest I get lonely. I know I have friends and family, but they can't fill the loneliness I feel of not being in a relationship. Being single is easy for my friends because they still have a sex life, or they have only been single for a few months. I have been single my WHOLE LIFE. I don't need you to tell me to wait for the right person because I just saw video on instagram where a woman was single for 65 years. Is that going to be me? What if I never find my person. It is my greatest fear. And when I complain to you about it, I don't want you to try and fix the problem, I just want you to empathize."I understand and get you Brooke" That's what I long to hear. I also hate when you tell me to just hook up. Don't you get it? I don't want a guy to just want me for my body. I mean I want him to think I am sexy, but I want him to think everything about me is sexy. That's all.