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(TW vent) it's my birthday! I've made it this far, huh? How irony.. Cause while it's my birthday, I'm still thinking about death. Like, why am I so miserable? But then again, is it worth it going this far? Why did I even go this far for? I never got what I wanted. I never get what I've dreamed of. All I could ever see myself for is as a burden. I want to follow my dream but is it worth it to sacrifice whatever they've ever dreamed me to be? Is it worth it to see how heavy is it for them to finally give up their dream for my dream? Is it worth the price? Am I really finally gonna be happy if I do it? But the most important question is, what do I want? For fuck sake, Fluffy, what the fuck do you really want? You're so busy trying to live up to those expectations to the point that you have lost. What you really want has been completely thrown away and God, I can't find it. They keep asking, "What do you want?" "What are you going to do?" "Is this really what you want?" For God's sake, shut up, I don't know, okay?! I don't know...