Alright, so a lot of y'all are just in my wattpad and not in my instagram so y'all won't know all the lafdas of what's happening in my life tbh.
So, long story short, I kinda went on and off this break because I faced some SERIOUS ASF academic downfalls and had to go on and off the accounts.
That being said, being online on my Instagram handle felt easier than the real life one because everyone moved on irl and it reminded me of that very ache of me being unable to do the same.
And it's hard to bounce back from the situation I'm in. However, my bookstagram page feels like a safe space, somewhere I can be more 'me' and not have to suppress myself because everyone more or less feels like in a similar situation as me. And I even found a person or two in the very same condition as me in this community and THAT made me feel so so safe and understood at that moment and finally like my life wasn't over because of that one downfall.
So yeah, I kinda went on a long hiatus, idk how many times ill have to do so again till I start being stable someday.
But I'm here rn, and that's all that matters for now.