@honeylancaster i'm not an evil she-devil (i'd be a they-devil) and how would i be that for getting toxic people out of my life? can't you see, i don't want to be a jerk to you, but clingy people are toxic to antisocial people like myself. and i did fix myself. i'm actually doing pretty well i guess. in the whole scheme of self harm and self hate, i haven't been clean this long in the entire time. so tell people about all of it, my secrets and disorders. it really doesn't matter to me. i still have friends who will accept me and listen to me and protect me, i know you tried but you couldn,t protect me from yourself. and if your sisters are anything like my family, they would just be furious with me for being pan. don't winky face me, Alyssa and John both kniow that you're telling people i'm a jerk for not letting you walk all over me anymore. I'm sorry. "what's the worst thing i could say? would it matter if i stayed? so long, and goodnight, so long, and goodnight."