Just woke up,politics followed me to my dreams,now I’m just thinking of how meaningless this world is,ngl I hate being alive…hmmm , and I’m thinking about writing a story or something…I’ve been reading for 6 years,I want to share a piece,but I don’t really have much life experiences,so I don’t know what to make it about..plus I hate love,lol…or maybe just the one I create or feel,cause it’s so fake and temporary…maybe writing something would make me feel again,but I’ve been very disconnected from Anime things since 2023,it sucks,everything sucks…never thought I’d live up to this point,so I never thought about what would I do…and now that I’m here,It’s kind of humiliating…and I just feel like an empty shell(Izana coded lol),dunno why I’m writing,woke up very paranoid…I want to cry,but no emotion comes out of me,I feel so fake,I feel dead ,almost…and I’m back to feeling alone and like no one will understand me,it’s not like that in reality,they understand,they just don’t feel the way that I feel … hmmm,maybe writing something would ease my f up brain and give me some peace..tho I don’t really like peace,the word itself sounds like a lie,peace?on earth?I don’t think so…I hate empathy,I hate how much I feel for people,but feel none for me…this world is crazy,always have been,but I don’t want to accept it…I thought it was more than this,more than some fleeting moments filled with lies and smiles…plus I hate modern technologies and everything related to that field,I hate money,I hate …
I need a cigarette…maybe smoking is the only dream I’ve made true(yeah lol smoking was one of my dreams)..that’s it I guess..
