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can't find words anymore and can't sleep good, I hate these nightmares so much

then ofc I visited to my grandparents' grave next ,, lia was there for the whole time with me and i appreciate that so much, ph how i wish kenn was here. 

for the first time in many years, I visited my parents grave and I don't know how but I spent so many hours there, when lia came to pick me up she said your mascara has got ruined, i didn't believed but I did cried a lot. sitting there for so many hours i realised that how I miss my father more than my mother.