saltine_sunset
hey tiannie what's poppin?
tiantianrui
gnab_quokka_biased
Heheheeee... (don't ask why I'm posting this..............I feel like it)
tiantianrui
@gnab_quokka_biased shhh about the other guy… CRIES. we’ve been friends since elementary me and her. We go to the same school and yeah magic happened with her balls of steel
tiantianrui
every time i log back on to the communities id been on for years and left about four years ago i feel so lonely. idk why and i can't explain it, almost as though im losing a part of me that gave me so much happiness. the disconnect makes my heart hurt in this odd longing sort of way. i used to talk to everyone every single day, skipping out on homework and food just to have another minute with the people i'd never even met before. i thought i knew everything about everyone there, and the rushes of adrenaline never stopped. i smiled so hard it hurt, and i felt like i belonged. i haven't found that feeling truly since and it hurts. everyone is gone, and i can't find the people i used to talk to so often. they've gone off to collage, getting in to amazing schools while im still here hoping to make it another day. i keep wondering how i can go forward when all i do is look backward, and always look so longingly back into the past. i know it wasn't always sunshine and rainbows, but somehow my brain turned it into that glorified version that i now miss so deeply. i don't know what to do with myself right now, and im barely holding on to the moments i have. i swear that everything just feels heavier each time i wake up. i miss you, saltine. maybe that's the worst part.
now back to a fit of depression because life is feeling far too slow. i wish i could wake up into happiness, but i can't see that side anymore
tiantianrui
@saltine_sunset BAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHA I UNDERSTAND ALL OF THAT AHAHAHAHHAAHA LONG LIVE THE KANG BANG
saltine_sunset
@tiantianrui (most definitely an ad) ~we all got theeds, so get your hope-ridden behind down to saltine salon, because why be sad if you don't get some kickass hair out of it, batteries and relationship status not included, made on the roof of a suburban high school (them kangs be wildin iykyk)~
tiantianrui
I SAW MY LARA OH MY GOD. manon i hope you feel better soon~~ we missed you <3. GUYS I ACTUALLY SOBBED SO HARD WHEN I SAW LEXI EZRELLA AND ADELLA ON SCREEN
tiantianrui
@do_re-mi I GOTTA GET AROUND MY RESTRICTIONS SO ILL GET THEM TO YOU AFTER SCHOOL I PROMISE
tiantianrui
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KATSEYE IN THREE HOURS HOLY SHIT
gnab_quokka_biased
@tiantianrui ONG HOWS IT GOINGGGGGGGGG AND HELL YEAH UR GONNA SEND VIDS AND PICSSS
gnab_quokka_biased
Sighhh I wish Wattpad would have private chats
tiantianrui
guys im cooked
tiantianrui
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Taking a break I think
I’ve had a psychotic break and I’ve been hallucinating. Shit has gone down and everything is falling apart. Anyways. I’ll let you know if I have to go to a mental hospital
gnab_quokka_biased
@tiantianrui u have a therapist? And is this a common occurrence?? Lmk if I'm overstepping and/or if u wanna talkkkk
tiantianrui
hm a lot has happened. well. new chap i guess.
Lee_knows_what
TIAN ARE YOU OKAY ARE YOU DEAD WHY ARENT YOU RESPONDING PLEASE BE OKAEY