timtim927
Heyyyyyy!
How are you doing?
Today my mother said she wishes I just go away so they can live in peace! I had been gone living in another country for a long time but now hearing this makes me just think what have I done? Looking at the past it was just sacrificng lots of things cause of them mostly her. In lots of situations I made myself the bad person just for her. She was the one I would protect with all I could. Even I myself am so weak and broken inside!
I don't know looking at the past all I did was fighting for her even it caused making myself a bad person. I went through so much hearing harsh words from lots of people the people who were so close to me but they broke me so bad into smallest pieces just cause wanted to protect her! To take her rights from others and give them back to her.
Today what she said just made me think.....is she looking at me as the bad person like others? But I became the bad person cause of her! I fought with my own father cause of her! Fought with the ones who bullied her cause of her! I stood in front of everyone was there when everyone left her but.....did I do right?
I don't think so! I lost lots of things cause of her. Even myself and now.....now....when I have nothing....even me for myself I am all alone. I even do not have anyone to say these and am sharing this horrific side of me my weaknesses here with the ones I barely know and they barely know me.
It is so hard to gather myself! Harder than I thought but all I know is to I must go back to my life. To somewhere with no one around! Somewhere with lots of struggles in a cold house with no one way farther than my home. Somewhere that I still cannot speak their language well. But I can live there happily yeah?
Sometimes being alone is way better than having people around!
seokjinyours
@timtim927 please love yourself first and be happy, don't think about other people. If you're mom said something bad about you move from that house move far far away from her maybe someday she gonna understand you always stay beside her and always protect her. I pray you always happy, because your story make me smile
Mighty_soul
@timtim927 hi author timtim. You're not alone we all are with you. Your readers and followers will all always be with you. So the stories and beautiful characters you'd created. You'd created whole world for yourself. You're not alone. You're very strong person. It takes a lot of courage to take stand for someone against family,loved ones and world. In this process you might have lost somethings,people and importantly yourself. But,you have learned the lesson of life. Its never too late to start finding yourself back. This time,you will find yourself as more stronger emotionally and mentally. You are very very strong person. Never give up.Just focus on yourself and your life. Stay healthy. We all are with you author timtim.✊✊
Jinkook12419
@timtim927 hi, author-nim. i can only imagine how upset u might be right now. hearing these things that too from mother, it’s really heartbreaking. although deep down in ur heart, u might be upset, i believe that ure strong enough to go through this storm. i pray to Almighty to grant u peace and happiness. about ur mother’s words, dont dwell in it so much. i dont know why she said what she said. i’m not in place to judge. i pray for ur sanity and happiness, author-nim. u always make me smile with ur work. ure not alone, author-nim. we are always here for u.
