Rainy_the_devil

⚠️VENT ABUSE MENTIONED AND NEGLECT⚠️
          
          
          I hate when he's in a good mood.
          
          Because I know it's not gonna last.
          
          I hate when he says "I love you"
          
          Because if he loves me why hurt me?
          
          
          I hate it.
          
          I hate it.
          
          
          I'm so use to being abused I just want to be abused.
          
          Because..
          
          It feels like he's playing a sick game when he is being nice.
          
          It feels like he's just teasing me.
          Giving me a taste of the fatherly love then snatching it away.
          
          It's so irritating.
          
          Tiring.
          
          I just want love.
          
          But at the same time.
          
          I just prefer him to be abusive to me and neglectful.
          
          </3.

ykw?
          
          Screw it.
          
          
          I'm gonna make my account an oc themed/rp account of my favorite oc.
          
          ~Robert~
          
          
          So yeah :D

⚠️ REPEATING WORDS TALK OF ABUSE/DADDY ISSUES ⚠️
          
          
          Why why why why why Why why why why 
          
          Why did he have to say he loves me.
          
          Why why why why why why why why..
          
          He doesn't..
          
          He can't...
          
          If he loves me why'd he neglect me and abuse me throughout my childhood..?
          
          
          He doesn't love me.
          
          He can't.
          
          No.
          Please Tell me he was joking.
          
          I don't wanna be loved by him.
          
          Please no no no no no.
          
          Don't wanna.
          
          No No no no no.
          
          
          Please no.
          
          He can't be telling the truth ..
          
          How does he love me??
          
          He's controlling manipulative.
          
          He is constantly having mood swings one day he's sweet the next he's ignoring me and my mom and Screaming at me.
          
          
          No please f*ck no no no no no no no no no no no no no no no nonono no no.
          
          
          I don't wanna .
          
          I don't want him.
          
          No.
          
          No no no no.
          
          Please no.

Aaaaahhhhhh :(
          
          
          I need a Caregiverrrrrrr

My granny's MALE friend asked me the most personal uncomfortable question a Old man could ever ask a teenager..
          
          
          ....
          
          
          I will let you take a guess on what he asked me
          
          
          :)
          
          I'm shaking and scared and uncomfortable 

I wanna be little..

Imma Tell y'all now.
          
          I am stressed exhausted and irritated and I haven't slipped into little space in awhile.
          
          And I'm very mentally unstable.
          
          
          I am going to be irritable and clingy probably.
          
          So if you don't wanna deal with me.
          
          Then that's okay.
          
          I just wanted to let you guys know that I'm gonna be super clingy and irritated 

I just wanna slip into little space that's it.
          
          But I can't.

⚠️ vent ⚠️
          
          
          Well.
          Made my dad pissed time I came home :D
          
          I don't feel good I'm sleep deprived it's f*cking hot and I feel like complete shit.
          
          And my dad acted mad at me and my mom yesterday and didn't speak to us
          
          BUT if I have a f*cking additude or "snap" I'm suddenly the bad guy?
          
          Okay sir.
          
          Sorry that you are the only f*cking person who is allowed to express emotions.
          
          
          Yep.
          
          I guess he is mad definitely now.
          
          I am Constantly f*cking shit up.

⚠️ABUSE⚠️
          
          
          I NEED someone to answer this please.
          
          Because I feel awful and guilty.
          
          
          ..my dad is trying to be a better father but..
          
          Being nice doesn't erase all the shit he's done to me.
          
          Even the good memories I have of him always ended in him screaming at me and abusing me..
          
          
          I've been neglected abused verbally emotionally physically mentally..
          
          It's scary.
          
          I don't want a relationship with him yet he keeps trying I'm scared.
          
          I hate it.
          
          Please someone answer please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please please.