I'm just really upset and I'm losing faith right now. So I was washing dishes in the kitchen and my brother and mother were talking about Valentine's day and his recent ex girlfriend and I was thinking, "oh, she's unlucky I guess" and then my brother suggested getting a gift for one of his best guy friends since there was no other ex he could give it to and my mother spazzed out, to which my brother replied that he was only kidding. I asked her what all of that was for and she said she didn't support all of that "homo-love shıt" and continued to talk about how it looks better for a girl to be gay than a guy and all of this other bull and I didn't want to hear it anymore. I tried telling her that and she continued spewing insults as if she couldn't see how much that hurt me ( yet she seemed to think she knew everything about me ) She argued saying that if I felt that way, then I could have lived with my dad. ( though I would still get the same reaction ) I tried to stay as calm as possible ( it was hard since she already insulted them and gave bad looks whenever she saw drawings similar to such ). Really I wanted to effing cry and throw a fit. I wasn't even gay and I was insulted and hurt to the max, and at the same time, I was glad that I wasn't gay. I don't think I would be mentally strong enough to keep living in the same house as her or handle others like that. Now my brother is beginning to pick up on that mindset and I would be made the bad guy if I taught him otherwise. I just wanna cry right now and live on another planet, cause I don't think I can handle this for another 3 years. I really don't.
