tinybrazitish

so sorry...but i did it again

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@tinybrazitish oq ?
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ZavierFelix

Heyyo Nina my love, just realised that you wrote "married with Liam Payne" on your profile and bet you are now with him up there already, very lucky and sad at the same time. Say hi to him from me? Thank youuu and wish you're always be happy up there. I'll write to you again soon x

ZavierFelix

Nina my love forgive me for not messaging you last year at all. God I am such a terrible person. How are you up there? Hopefully you're always happy. I'm still alive, don't worry haha. I feel a bit better than 2 years ago but still missing Aru a lot haha and I miss you too so so much. I actually wanted to message you on your birthday this year but I mean why not now? Haha. It's been 6 years huh? Look how fast time flies by. You know, since I knew Aru and you back in 2019, it feels like my life is stuck in that year. Especially after I found out what happened to you(and I'm sorry I'm taking up your post messages with my messages hahaha, should I delete some of it? I mean wattpad is an idiot for deleting the private message feature, can't message you in private anymore but hopefully people don't mind me). I still can't move on from you and Aru, like I said, I'm stuck in 2019. Aru and you are the only 2 people I care a lot but I lost you to heaven and I lost Aru. So the conclusion is I lost both of you and life been worse after. I just wish both of you will stay with me but sadly not. Oh yeah will you let me visit you one day up there when my time has come tho? Anyways, make sure to always be happy up there and keep an eye on Aru for me? I love you Nina, I'll message again soon x

femaleaIpha

tem 4 anos ou mais que eu não venho aqui, nina. mas eu lembro de você todo dia, principalmente nos dias '18'. 
          
          você nunca saiu da minha vida desde que partiu. eu lembro de tudo. sinto de falta de tudo. você cuidava de mim como sempre quis que sua irmã cuidasse de você, me protegia e me ensinava a ser mais gentil. você era tão doce e eu era tão escrota, eu tinha inveja. mas se hoje eu sou uma pessoa melhor, grande parte vem de você.
          
          você se foi com 17, hoje eu tenho 19. tinha 14 quando você se foi. eu sobrevivi ao que te matou e nunca vou me conformar com isso. o câncer é uma merda, escolheu a pessoa errada, mas eu vou continuar nessa vida por nós duas. prometo que vou te manter orgulhosa.
          
          eu entrei na universidade, passei de primeira no vestibular com 17 anos. você não estava aqui pra esfregar na minha cara que sempre disse que eu conseguiria, mas eu sei que aquela joaninha no meu gabarito de prova era você. obrigada pela força. eu sei que também era você chamando meu nome do nada na assembleia quando o presidente do meu conselho me elogiou. 
          
          eu espero que esteja bem onde quer que esteja, que você esteja feliz, que ainda tenha seu típico cheirinho de pêssego, que você finalmente consiga provar todos os sabores de cookies do mundo, que não tenha perdido seu sotaque, que tenha conhecido meu pai que você sempre quis conhecer, e que esteja finalmente saudável.
          
          vou sempre te levar comigo nina, obrigada por tanto e me desculpa por nunca mais ter vindo aqui.

ZavierFelix

Hey Nina love, how are you? I'm reading a book now and it reminds me of you so much. Also it reminds me of 2 other people and you know who they are. I miss you Nina, I miss you a lot and also them, I miss Aru and Pop too. It's embarrassing how it feels lile things keep coming back at them about them and you although I tried so hard not to but it just happened. They will think I'm pathetic and disgusting for keep digging in the past but it's okay I deserve all bad names they called me. Anyway I wish you will always be happy up there and I'll message you again later Nina because I'm sick now and I'm trying to rest but reading a book just helping me get rid of the boredom doing nothing but laying in bed all day. Until later my love oh and the book is in a dark dark wood x

ZavierFelix

Hey Nina my love. How are you up there? Apologies because it's been 2 months since last time I messaged you. I'm very bad lately but it's okay I'm trying still. I need to get my sh*t together again just like before. I wish you are always be happy up there Nina and yeah I miss you and maybe you're the only one who miss me back hopefully haha. I'll message you again later ok? Until later love x

ZavierFelix

Hey Nina, it's been long time since last time I messaged you. How are you? Wish you're alright and happy up there. I am feeling like not myself lately I don't know why. I feel like I'm not at ease, can't sleep well, can't enjoy the food I eat, everything seems weird. I really wanna tell you about so many things. I feel safe whenever I talk to you or Aru, you both will never judge me especially you because I can't disturb Aru anymore, I'm afraid I make her feel annoyed. Take care Nina and I miss you x