sometimes I just sit and look on in awe at all the beautiful things and people in my life. life is hard but it is also so, so good. I'm so incredibly,overwhelmingly grateful. I'm in a lovely, healthy relationship with a girl that I adore, no longer in a toxic friendship that I was in for like, 3 years, in my last year of high school so I'm close to being able to leave this house, I've got friends that love me, a good job, and mentors that have my back. everything is not sunshine and rainbows (scheduled for knee surgery next month, mentally ill, living in a semi-toxic household, etc) but the sunshine and rainbows sure make the clouds and storms less frightening.