todoroki-kun22

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CH.2 of SCHIZO-POSTING: hi guys im back.
          	why the fuck did I choose to learn all three sciences? I do NOT love them enough for the barjillion experiments I need to memorise. 
          	School was alright, my friends made it bearable. Today my friend farted out loud in a silent applied maths class and I laughed/coughed for like 3 minutes. Highlight of my day. 
          	Sometimes I wish I could be "that girl" that's got her head in the books and is ready to peg the future till it whines, but my friends know too much about me and I'm too lazy; my aura would be built on pillars of sand. 
          	Love makes me believe in God because we evolved too perfectly to biologically have to survive on love and camaraderie. 
          	I think the reason as to why I automatically admire(?) gay relationships more than straight ones are because with a heterosexual pairing, everyone assumes they will be attracted to each other. They must be fucking in secret. If two people of opposite genders are friendly, it must be a prelude to dating. 
          	It's the opposite with gay relationships, it would be "weird" if you saw someone that way without their approval. Oftentimes, you don't know explicitly if they are gay, because there is a lot of stigma even nowadays.
          	I think I appreciate it so because to love someone of the same gender is to prove your love to them. You can't love them safely. You can't love them peacefully. You will upset someone to do so - your family, friends, or community. Or yourself - internalised homophobia goes crazy. To me at least, gay love feels more true. People will warn you against it. People will tell you it's forbidden and wrong. But to go out of your way to love someone? That's the purest thing I know.  To do something, being told that it’s wrong but you feel that it’s right? This is often the epitome of homosexual relationships. To be selfless without the promise of receiving is intrinsically beautiful and no context can taint this. 
          	I'm worried I sound pseudo-intellectual. 
          	That's all folks, stay tuned!

todoroki-kun22

this message may be offensive 
CH.2 of SCHIZO-POSTING: hi guys im back.
          why the fuck did I choose to learn all three sciences? I do NOT love them enough for the barjillion experiments I need to memorise. 
          School was alright, my friends made it bearable. Today my friend farted out loud in a silent applied maths class and I laughed/coughed for like 3 minutes. Highlight of my day. 
          Sometimes I wish I could be "that girl" that's got her head in the books and is ready to peg the future till it whines, but my friends know too much about me and I'm too lazy; my aura would be built on pillars of sand. 
          Love makes me believe in God because we evolved too perfectly to biologically have to survive on love and camaraderie. 
          I think the reason as to why I automatically admire(?) gay relationships more than straight ones are because with a heterosexual pairing, everyone assumes they will be attracted to each other. They must be fucking in secret. If two people of opposite genders are friendly, it must be a prelude to dating. 
          It's the opposite with gay relationships, it would be "weird" if you saw someone that way without their approval. Oftentimes, you don't know explicitly if they are gay, because there is a lot of stigma even nowadays.
          I think I appreciate it so because to love someone of the same gender is to prove your love to them. You can't love them safely. You can't love them peacefully. You will upset someone to do so - your family, friends, or community. Or yourself - internalised homophobia goes crazy. To me at least, gay love feels more true. People will warn you against it. People will tell you it's forbidden and wrong. But to go out of your way to love someone? That's the purest thing I know.  To do something, being told that it’s wrong but you feel that it’s right? This is often the epitome of homosexual relationships. To be selfless without the promise of receiving is intrinsically beautiful and no context can taint this. 
          I'm worried I sound pseudo-intellectual. 
          That's all folks, stay tuned!

todoroki-kun22

im actually so funny i genuinely find myself witty and smart should i check myself for narcissistic personality disorder? maybe ive genuinely gone beyond redemption, clinically speaking. i am writing to no one and everyone on the internet in my room at 1.30 am this has to be indicative of something right? anyways check out my schizo-post no. 1 mwah i love you!

todoroki-kun22

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ok if you have seen this PLEASE STAY PLEASE i suffer greatly from a lack of attention. more articulately, i suffer from the willing avoidance of true intimacy, and i like to complain. this makes me insufferable. i think this will be like a podcast. a podcast between me, myself and i !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ill see what the fuck ill name it. 
          CHAPTER ONE: IN THE BEGINNING
          
          in the beginning there was a girl who was pretty "no thoughts head empty" like you teenagers say :D 
          She grew up the idyllic and standard Generation Z life: abandoned and left to fend for herself on the internet, a lawless land that held little to no consequences to the drastic repercussions it had on a little girl's psyche. JK it wasn't that bad, i only saw a little bit of gore every now and then. For the most part I took what I wanted from it - FNAF theories, gacha videos and nightcore remixes. 
          Yes, yes, todoroki-kun22 had it all, folks. UNTIL THE ANGST ARC HIT !"!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111111111111!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1111111
          INEXPLICABLE DREAD!!!!! RIGHT OUT THE ASS!!!!!!!!!! but it was fine, because then 2020 quarantine hit. while the rest of the world was mourning dead relatives and elderly dying by the masses in old folks homes, i was at home watching SAO and Your Lie in April. I played the shit and piss out of Breath of the Wild too, I got like 300 hours during the first 2 months of quarantine LMFAO
          
          i cant say much more about my teenage years bc im scared ill fucking dox myself but i WILLLLLLLLLL SAYYYYYYYYYY that i am classically trained in one (1) singular instrument which gives leeway to elitism and intrinsic intricate knowledge on anything related to classical music ever so in true esprit of musical snobbism i will proclaim BACH IS BEST AND ILL SUCK HIS DICK FOR THE REST OF HUMANITY'S EXISTENCE and SHOSTAKOVICH CAN KISS MY FLABBY CELLULITE RIDDEN ASS bc i fucking hate his sonatas theyre so bad? 
          
          That concludes chapter 1 guys stay tuned for my next schizo-post !!!!!!

todoroki-kun22

ok maybe i should write about my interests? this is essentially a corner of the void that presumably no one will see and anyone who does, does so of their own volition and at their own risk. furthermore, no one knows my real identity. i am merely subjugating the empty plate in front of me. i have nothing of value to regurgitate, and the most i can contribute to someone's meaningless life is amateur anecdotes of a life lived by hundreds before. but the beauty is in the mundane, and the tragedy in the mediocre. my life is a work of art incomparable to those not before me, but of my own era. BUT NONE OF THAT MATTERS BECAUSE YOU FOUND MY PAGE INSTEAD OF SOMEONE ELSE'S LOLOLOLOLOL RNG-MAXXING COPE GUYS COPE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!