Anime_lover_MEW_MEW
I never thought youd have lore.
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
Sorry skinny people, don't take offense to what I say, I love you and want to be like you. But.
I'm bother jelouse and scared of skinny people. Because I want to look like you but I'm scared y'all are jugding my fat ass.
luckyclawwriter
@tokoyama_thebirdyboy only trashy people judge you on your body weight. True people will accept you no matter how you look.
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
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God I'm upset tumbler isnt working like for real? What the fuck?! I'm still getting notifications for Gud's account. But I can't like or make posts?! Ugh. I don't want to use my almost falling apart laptop (it is second hand don't fight me for breaking it.) . When I want to post and that I find out I can't?!
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
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Tw, if in recovery do not interact. I'm just venting about myself and my mom.))
God I am such and fatass pig.i wish I fucking had control when comes to sweets. So I'm using some patches I got a while back that made it hard to swallow.
My mom finally confirmed what I see in the mirror and on the scale every day. That I'm fucking fat. She said she wished I'd stop eating and that she could hit me. So guess what? If she wants me to fucking starve I will. Besides I deserve it. I'm useless and apparently don't care for anyone but myself...
That's a lie. I put everyones emosionly and mental needs before mine.. so much so that I'll activily avoid saying how I feel to my rl friends and family so they won't get destressed... I just wish I wasn't human but instead a robot so I could feel these things...
I wish I didn't care so much.
I wish I wasnt so emotional.
I wish I could do things when asked.
I wish I was skinny.
I wish i was a boy or gender neutral looking.
I wish I loved myself.
I wish I was loveable.
I wish I was so hideous and fat.
I wish I could make my mom happy and proud of me.
I wish I wasnt a disappointment.
I wish people wouldn't lie to me or be fake to my face.
I wish I was normal...
I wish could go into a store or my school without having a break because it feels like everyone and everything is starring at me.
I wish I could take a shower every other at or on a schedule and not when I have a good day and walk pass my mirror naked.
I wish I could fine the energy to clean my room...
I wish I could show my love in a normal way.
I wish to be in control.
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
Trigger warning
Guess who is on modorit watch for suicide and might also being going to a psych ward for 72 or more hours?....
Yeah, me..
Also my mom is more consured about me being taken away(money goes with the child) then my mental health.
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
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Trigger warning
You know it's bad when you go from "I hate you mom I wish you were dead"
To
"I hate you mom I wish I was dead"..
I want her to suffer through my funeral and hear some fake shit she made up.
The only reason why I haven't died is being I want to not look like a beached whale when I die.
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
So my mom won't let me drink energy drinks with out judging me but will let me have alcohol?
Neat
(15, almost 16. But even so I do not promote under age drinking. I am just stating what my mom will and will not let my drink.)
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
@Squiggly-octo I only had one can . Besides my mom would kick my ass if I drank without her around.
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
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Ok, I know my last post was serious but....
I wanna shift to mha(a few different ones)
So I can:
Hug twice, shoji, Sero, shinsou, denki, Eri, todoroki, Dabi, rei, maybe izuku, kiri, tokoyami, shiggy, aizawa, bakugo (if he lets me) and villian izuku. Oh and big sis Magen
Be hugged by, mostly everyone above.
Cuddle with, twice , shinsou, Sero, denki, Dabi(is a father child kinda way as I see him as a dad), aizawa, shoji and Eri(not is a creepy way. As if I'm a older sibling or parent kinda way).
Beat Mineta's and every perv but denki's asses(denki doesn't go as far as Mineta EHO FUCKING FLIRTED WITH ERI! THAT BOI ID GOING TO THE FUCKING MOON BITCH!)
Gossip with, Mina and toga. Oh and koda! Cause I need to know everything.
Idc about being railed but if it happens id prefer it to be railed by, kiri, shinsou, Sero, toga, twice(wanna see what happens), villian Deku, villian shinsou, shoji, Tamaki, bakugo, Jiro.
Ages I'll shift as, 15-17, 18, 20-25, 31. And maybe 5-7 so I can be friends with Eri and kota .
Roles I'll shift into are, hero, villian, vigilante and a pet to the league of villians. :)
I might add to the things. Also pls give me fun ideas to script or do when I shift!
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
@__flower_boy__ Oh another I know. You can shift to any reality, no matter the difference. Wanna be the opposite gender? The universe has your back. And of you want to murder someone in that reality.. don't, they are really. Unless you are going to be a villain do. Not. Kill!
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
@__flower_boy__ It's easy. Although I haven't done it yet. You can use methods, subliminals, a script or not. But it is easier that way. I do recommend you do your own research as. Also new to it.
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
Quick question.
Is it right for me to feel scared that she'll yell at when my mother is mad? So scared that I'm on the edge of crying?
tokoyama_thebirdyboy
Does someone want to help me murder a landlord and sell his parts on the black market?
He is my father's landlord, keep in mind my father is disabled from having two Stokes. And the landlord just told him he needs to move just because they want to rip up the floors. And Well is illegal to kick someone out of their place rn because of covid.
The worse thing is he said he isn't going give my dad a different appartment to stay in because all the other ones go for $1300.
The lowest a one bedroom apartment in Canada in my Town will go for is $1000..
