tomatoegirl26

@tomatoegirl26 you’re so welcome <3 and thank you for you’re beautiful soul too ash and I’m thankful and so beyond grateful for you and everything you do for me and it’s okay I’m sorry this is long too and I cried because you’re words touched me too thank you so much ash I love you <3

@prettydecayx I’m so sorry it made you cry ash I really hoped that you wouldn’t but it’s okay because I know it’s a hard thing to read and no it’s okay don’t apologize for taking a moment I understand that I’m really happy that my words touched you deeply the same way they touched me and how you felt the pain and love and longing too and you’re welcome I knew you always wanted to know what I wrote about you and I wanted to share it with you and don’t be sorry it’s okay I know you never wanted that ash but even if it hurt me a lot I was never gonna leave and I’m never planning to leave even when it gets hard and hurts a lot and I’m so sorry that you felt the pain too and I missed you so much beyond words could ever explain and I wanted nothing more then just to be there with you that’s all I ever want and okay thank you so much ash for you’re reassurance that makes me feel better but I just said that because I know you’re parents are homophobic but okay I’m happy that they would love me and I understand that they want the best for you but I’m I do that for you you and I’m glad to know that I do more then I realized and thank you immensely for showing me what it’s like to be loved and cared and understood for and ash I’m certain my family will love you you’re so special and kind and caring and I honestly don’t know what they want for me but it should be you because you make me the happiest I’ve ever been i haven’t been this happy in so long but you make me feel seen and appreciated and loved and thank you for choosing me because i choose you too ash I only want you but they’ll definitely love you and you’re welcome ash <3 and of course I love you with everything in me and I’ll always wait for you no matter what ash i trust you with my soul and I’ll always be patient with you even when we were both hurting I love you so so so much beyond every light year and I’ll always know that i won’t ever forget you are my whole heart and soul and my safe place forever

@tomatoegirl26 maddi this made me cry I’m sorry it took me a little bit to reply, I just had to take a moment because of how deeply your words touched my heart. Every single word you said resonated so deeply with me, and I could feel how much love, pain and longing you were carrying when you wrote this. and thank you for trusting me enough to share this with me, it truly means so much, and I’m so sorry that my absence had hurt you so deeply, I never wanted you to feel that kind of ache or emptiness and it breaks my heart knowing that you were struggling so much too. But I want you to know that I felt it too and I missed you more than words could ever describe and the silence was so hard for me as well. I felt the same heaviness in my chest, that same longing to talk to you and to just be close to you again it was so hard and all I could think about was you. Also maddi my parents would love you. The only thing they care about is that the person I’m with treats me well and makes me happy and you do that more than you know. You’ve shown me so much kindness unconditional love and care and I know they would see that too and they would love and adore that about you. And when I meet your family someday and if things aren’t perfect or they don’t like me, I want you to know that I would still choose you. I don’t care about anything else as long as I have you. Thank you again for sharing this with me maddi <3 and thank you for loving me the way you do, thank you for waiting for me, for trusting me, and for being so patient even when this was such a painful time for both of us. I love you so so so much, beyond this earth. and I hope you always know that. You are my warmth, my comfort, my home, and someone who brings so much light into my life. Thank you for being the beautiful soul that you are, I’m so grateful for you and everything you bring into my life <3 and omg im so sorry this ended up being so long, I just had so much I wanted to say