totellthetruthhurtsm

Hi guys.
          	
          	I couldn't live a lie anymore. 
          	I broke a heart.
          	I'm torn up inside because of this.
          	
          	I'm not who I say I am...pretended to be. 
          	I'm not a River Stone Vigo. I am not Male. I am not Bi. I am Not a Lesbian.
          	
          	My name is Bethany. I am female. 
          	
          	I made up this River Stone Vigo to try and run away from my life. My duties. Who I truly am and who I truly belong to. I never realized I would befriend such amazing people as you all. That I would make friends...that I would hurt you that I call my friends. 
          	
          	But I can't stay. I can't.
          	You wouldn't want me to even if I could....even if I would. 
          	And that's okay.
          	
          	I ran from God. God my Lord and Savior. I was scared. I was lazy. I was stupid. Even when I knew he did not want me on here. I thought it was mainly for myself until I realized that all you that I will hurt. He wanted me to stay away because of you. Because the pain and grief it would bring to you. His precious children. 
          	
          	I'm sorry. I  never meant to make friends. I never wanted to hurt anyone Never. 
          	But please don't hate God He loves you It was me not obeying his call on my life that caused your pain not Him It will never be Him He will never lie to you or break a promise to you Or leave you like I must leave you now
          	"For I know the thoughts that I think towards you says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil to give you a future and a hope." That's what God tells us Except Jesus Christ into your heart and no matter what happens you will always have the strength to go on to move on I'm sorry I truly am I never meant to hurt anyone but I was stupid and I did I love you all I truly do I want the best for you yet have given you the worst in turn for the trust and faith and love you have given to me. 
          	
          	I can't take back what I did I wish I could but I can't but if you let God into your heart he can and always will heal you No matter what Please let him in Jesus will never hurt you lie to you or leave you NEVER.
          	
          	I'm so sooo sorry but love you all.
          	-Bethany

nobodyfudgingcares

Awww it's alright Bethany, but you shouldn't just leave like that 
          	  
          	  It's alright you should come back
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wadiawrites

@totellthetruthhurtsm Ameen. It's okay to make mistakes, love. God, from whatever religion you are of, is always kind and the ultimate forgiver. You made a mistake, but you have so much potential to do better. You regret what you have done, and that is all it takes. Ask forgiveness and come back to us and show us you. We don't care whether you're a girl or boy or trans or anything else for that matter. You are you, and that's all it matters. Come back to us, Beth. You haven't hurt us in the way you believe. Don't give up on yourself, love. You are golden.
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prolycrazy

Sincerly yours, 
          	  Sir MADD_WOMAN
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Mistalee_

River Stone Vigo, I just read your message posted days ago, now and... I feel very ashamed of myself. I was so caught up in my exams and stuff that I didn't see it and... you're gone. Just like that. RIVER! I DON'T FREAKING CARE IF YOU'RE A GIRL OR A BOY OR A POODLE! You're now Bethany. So what? I still love you the same! Come back this instant. You're hurting me by going MIA, Riv. What happened to us blabbering idiotic stuff while calling each other 'Riv' and 'Kivvy?' I miss you, Riv. It's okay to make mistakes. So yeah, you lied about your gender and sexuality but now you're telling the truth, so nothing's wrong. Don't feel guilty. Come back my beautiful girl. It's okay. We're all here. You aren't making anyone happy by disappearing. You're wrong. It doesn't stop the hurt. HECK, WE AREN'T EVEN HURT OF YOUR LIE!! So please drag your generous behind back to wattpad, will you? Or I'm more than willing to drag you back myself -__-
          
          Your Kivvy. 
          
          p.s. Lucky Blue Smith pouting on your profile pic was more suiting. Put him back in it -__-

totellthetruthhurtsm

Hi guys.
          
          I couldn't live a lie anymore. 
          I broke a heart.
          I'm torn up inside because of this.
          
          I'm not who I say I am...pretended to be. 
          I'm not a River Stone Vigo. I am not Male. I am not Bi. I am Not a Lesbian.
          
          My name is Bethany. I am female. 
          
          I made up this River Stone Vigo to try and run away from my life. My duties. Who I truly am and who I truly belong to. I never realized I would befriend such amazing people as you all. That I would make friends...that I would hurt you that I call my friends. 
          
          But I can't stay. I can't.
          You wouldn't want me to even if I could....even if I would. 
          And that's okay.
          
          I ran from God. God my Lord and Savior. I was scared. I was lazy. I was stupid. Even when I knew he did not want me on here. I thought it was mainly for myself until I realized that all you that I will hurt. He wanted me to stay away because of you. Because the pain and grief it would bring to you. His precious children. 
          
          I'm sorry. I  never meant to make friends. I never wanted to hurt anyone Never. 
          But please don't hate God He loves you It was me not obeying his call on my life that caused your pain not Him It will never be Him He will never lie to you or break a promise to you Or leave you like I must leave you now
          "For I know the thoughts that I think towards you says the Lord, thoughts of peace and not of evil to give you a future and a hope." That's what God tells us Except Jesus Christ into your heart and no matter what happens you will always have the strength to go on to move on I'm sorry I truly am I never meant to hurt anyone but I was stupid and I did I love you all I truly do I want the best for you yet have given you the worst in turn for the trust and faith and love you have given to me. 
          
          I can't take back what I did I wish I could but I can't but if you let God into your heart he can and always will heal you No matter what Please let him in Jesus will never hurt you lie to you or leave you NEVER.
          
          I'm so sooo sorry but love you all.
          -Bethany

nobodyfudgingcares

Awww it's alright Bethany, but you shouldn't just leave like that 
            
            It's alright you should come back
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wadiawrites

@totellthetruthhurtsm Ameen. It's okay to make mistakes, love. God, from whatever religion you are of, is always kind and the ultimate forgiver. You made a mistake, but you have so much potential to do better. You regret what you have done, and that is all it takes. Ask forgiveness and come back to us and show us you. We don't care whether you're a girl or boy or trans or anything else for that matter. You are you, and that's all it matters. Come back to us, Beth. You haven't hurt us in the way you believe. Don't give up on yourself, love. You are golden.
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prolycrazy

Sincerly yours, 
            Sir MADD_WOMAN
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TheGreat0o

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totellthetruthhurtsm

 No problem :)
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TheGreat0o

Thank you :)
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totellthetruthhurtsm

Sure sweetie:)
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