toxicbotto117

hey there everyone. I hope you guys are doing well.
          	I have had my ups and downs.
          	
          	Life is mostly good for me. Been writing and staying busy at work.
          	But I just want to let you guys know that I had an insane weekend.
          	Friday night I was having car issues so I had a friend drop me off to my job. another friend was going to drop me off at my house but a few minutes before my shift ended at 10 PM i got a call from a good friend of mine.
          	He was about to commit suicide. I was the last person he called and the only one who picked up.
          	It was an intense night to say the least.
          	
          	But I'm telling you guys this to say that no matter who you are or where you are, be a good person to your friends and family.
          	if a friend or family member calls out of the blue, whether you have a good relationship with them or not, and whether you are aware they have struggles with mental health or not, always try to answer or call them back as soon as possible if you can't talk right then.
          	you never know what they are going through and if they are in need of help.
          	Had I not picked up my friends call, he would be dead now.
          	
          	anyone with suicidal thoughts, mental health struggles and depression, ask for help from a family or friend. Its always better to ask for help and there is nothing wrong with asking for help. No one is perfect and we all need a helping hand every now and then.
          	Even if it is a person you haven't talked to for a long time or someone you don't know as well, if you are at that point call every single person you know. There is a far higher chance someone will pick up.
          	and if you can't get a hold of anyone there are hotlines that operate 24 hours to help.
          	
          	If you can't get in contact with anyone then call 988.
          	Someone will pick up and talk to you and help you.

toxicbotto117

@Kmnzombie843 thank you!
          	  my friend is getting better and with family right now. so luckily he is safe
          	  
          	  there really are a lot of good people. you just gotta find them
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Kmnzombie843

@toxicbotto117 Sorry to hear all that. Hope things get better. And I agree with what you mentioned there. This world might be cruel but there are lots of good people.
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toxicbotto117

hey there everyone. I hope you guys are doing well.
          I have had my ups and downs.
          
          Life is mostly good for me. Been writing and staying busy at work.
          But I just want to let you guys know that I had an insane weekend.
          Friday night I was having car issues so I had a friend drop me off to my job. another friend was going to drop me off at my house but a few minutes before my shift ended at 10 PM i got a call from a good friend of mine.
          He was about to commit suicide. I was the last person he called and the only one who picked up.
          It was an intense night to say the least.
          
          But I'm telling you guys this to say that no matter who you are or where you are, be a good person to your friends and family.
          if a friend or family member calls out of the blue, whether you have a good relationship with them or not, and whether you are aware they have struggles with mental health or not, always try to answer or call them back as soon as possible if you can't talk right then.
          you never know what they are going through and if they are in need of help.
          Had I not picked up my friends call, he would be dead now.
          
          anyone with suicidal thoughts, mental health struggles and depression, ask for help from a family or friend. Its always better to ask for help and there is nothing wrong with asking for help. No one is perfect and we all need a helping hand every now and then.
          Even if it is a person you haven't talked to for a long time or someone you don't know as well, if you are at that point call every single person you know. There is a far higher chance someone will pick up.
          and if you can't get a hold of anyone there are hotlines that operate 24 hours to help.
          
          If you can't get in contact with anyone then call 988.
          Someone will pick up and talk to you and help you.

toxicbotto117

@Kmnzombie843 thank you!
            my friend is getting better and with family right now. so luckily he is safe
            
            there really are a lot of good people. you just gotta find them
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Kmnzombie843

@toxicbotto117 Sorry to hear all that. Hope things get better. And I agree with what you mentioned there. This world might be cruel but there are lots of good people.
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toxicbotto117

well folks, it was a long time coming and I expected it to happen anytime since 2020. I'm definitely sad but not as sad as some of the fellow actors who have passed away as most of their deaths were unexpected. And since they were younger it was sadder in my opinion.
          But none the less, one of the best characters, villains and people on this earth passed away.
          James Earl Jones was one talented actor. He had so many great roles and had a long career in acting and stage acting.
          Of course as any star wars fan will say, his role as darth vader was by far my favorite role of his.
          
          as for my message here.
          I just gotta say I am a little sad he passed away but it was expected. Especially since near half of the star wars cast passed away in 2020 and then before then.
          
          But He had a great long happy life
          
          may he rest in peace!

Deluxe_G0ld

@toxicbotto117 yes. may he rest in peace 
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Jovond2000

Is Remnants Guardian gonna get an update or is it cancelled?

toxicbotto117

@Jovond2000 thanks man1 Yeah they did it terribly and I do agree the fanfics are super nice since they can go and usually do go different directions especially the good ones.
            i appreciate the compliment
            ill try and make it a top priority
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Jovond2000

I can get that. They did do so shady things. Especially to Vic. But one of the great things about fanfics is u can redeem the series and characters in ur own way. In my opinion, the fanfics are better than the series itself. Especially the ones that don’t follow the same timeline as the show and go their own direction. Yours being one of them. I’ll be sure to keep a look out for any update. Take care
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toxicbotto117

@Jovond2000 thank you for asking! I do eventually plan to update it but it could still be a while. I have had really bad writers block on that series and have lost some motivation with my RWBY stories given what happened with RT and the series of RWBY over the past years.
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toxicbotto117

Man am I in a tough place right now.
          I still plan to update soon but most of my time as gone to my car as i have had car issues the last month
          on april 11th my oil tank got a leak in it and somehow coolant leaked into it and flooded my engine so i got a new engine for 4800 dollars. Something I had to take a loan out for.
          I'm also still paying off this car. so after the new engine i started to drive it and as of today my tire fell off my car when driving because my lug were strewn and doubled crossed so the lugs fell off and my rim got dented and scraped against the pavement so that's going to be another 1500 dollars to repair and I will likely need to take out another loan.
          
          all I need right now are good vibes

lolzeromanz

@toxicbotto117 I'm glad and hope it's continues 
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toxicbotto117

@lolzeromanz things are starting to turn up
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toxicbotto117

But as all things come to an end unfortunately RT started to end. As more came out about how they treated POC employees, trans and LGBTQ employees, and always had crunch I started to hate the company and despise their creations. After the vic mignogna situation the company got worse and worse, started to have too many controversies and from my opinion the majority of them just stopped caring about their craft. The big faces started to get burned out and retired, and some of them were fired and irreplicable (given they were fired for good reasons) and in general the company became a shell of its former self.
          many will say the company died when monty oum died, some when ray left and others when RWBY got worse every season. I don't think there was a true time the RT died until this week when they are shutting down, but for me the time I lost interest and respect for RT was when they fired Vic based off the allegations.
          As sad as it is to see RT go the current RT is nothing compared to what it was ten years ago. They became a shell of their former selves. RT died around 2017 and only became a walking carcass until now.
          They were such a huge inspiration for me and many others. had it not been for old RWBY and RT in general i never would have become a fan fiction writer and I never would have been inspired to be as creative as I am now.
          As many of you know RWBY got worse every season with the terrible writing by Miles and Kerry, and sadly that affected my writing and my inspiration for writing RWBY fan fiction. I am starting to get back into it but the memories of what the show became still affect me a little bit. However now that RWBY will likely be shelved I am more inspired to write fan fiction due to  not having to worry and fear what will be ruined next about the show and the characters I once loved.
          Thank you all for reading my stuff and supporting me through hard times. Thank you for all the kind words and messages over the years. And thank you RT for everything!

toxicbotto117

@lolzeromanz i freaking love dillon goo!
            i found him in 2020 just by sheer chance and learned from looking at all of his animations that he had previously worked on RWBY
            he still has his video up about his excitement of working on RWBY when RT first hired him its pretty cool to look back
            
            it would be amazing if he took RWBY and worked on it
            whether he hired miles and kerry for it again or just rebooted the series I'd at least hope that or someone he trusts would work with miles and kerry to make any final season far better than what the series was becoming.
            
            though if he can't save it I do wonder what will happen with the shows assets
            the soundtracks are still on Spotify, but I would be devastated if they were removed.
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lolzeromanz

The person that said that is Dillon goo at @DillonGoo apparently he and some of hes staff worked on RWBY earlier volumes (I think from 1 to 3) 
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lolzeromanz

@toxicbotto117 actually a previous employee of RT (don't know what there name is sorry) said that he would like to buy the rights to RWBY. I don't know if they will but there is still hope
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toxicbotto117

not really sure if this is important but i might as well put my words and two cents into the discussion at hand.
          I'm sure as most of you know that Roosterteeth shut down.
          Given the employees still have 60 days to get everything done with their current projects and the shows like red vs blue and RWBY are possibly getting picked up by other companies but none of it is known what will happen.
          For a long time i was a fan of roosterteeth and RWBY and red vs blue. To a degree I am still a fan but nowhere near as big as I used to be. after the vic mignogna situation, michael quinns domestic abuse, mica burton leaving and then of course ryan hawood and adam kovic i just didn't have it in me anymore. I lost all respect for RT as a company. Especially after hiring damon mills when he has even worse allegations against him than vic ever did and having actual evidence proving said allegations unlike vic I just couldn't bother to care anymore.
          I was a fan from the beginning. Back in 2003 when RT started red vs blue. a friend introduced me to the series when the first three episodes were out and i watched all the way to season 15. given the older stuff is far better than the newer stuff has ever been but despite how bad some of their shows got I still looked forward to seeing a new episode every friday. For a long time I only watched red vs blue but i eventually discovered some of their other stuff such as fails of the week and rage quit. Rage quit was my introduction to michael jones and man did i think he was a dick at first. but he became one of my favorite members. I got to meet him, lindsey, kara and arryn in 2019 at a local convention. Kara and michael were so sweet and nice (all of them were but my best experience was with those two) I still don't regret meeting them. If I could ever meet them again just to give them a hug after the closure of RT I would.

toxicbotto117

so firstly i want to apologize for my absence lately.
          I got busy over the summer with a shitty job living pay check to pay check and it constantly conflicted with my second job. but that finally ended and I am working a new winter job because my old one didn't want me back and tit changed to be pretty shitty for me anyways, like getting sexually harrassed by a coworker, my new manager being petty over small things and giving us a new and shitty app used to clock into and out of shifts. I am glad I am out of that.
          as for other things I am doing better and finally ablr to save up my money. it feels good to not be limited to 100-300 dollars for two and a half weeks before my next paycheck after all needed expenses like rent and car payments.
          
          In other news I am starting to get a somewhat regular writing schedule and I have been finally getting rejuvenated in writing RWBY. I will admit I got really bad writers block for those stories and worked on too many at one time. Plus with the controversies at RT and the low quality RWBY has fallen to, I just lost all inspiration for the longest time. I do plan to finish my stories I have started and then maybe move onto other RWBY fan fics. 
          I am also currently and slowly writing some original stories of mine, such as aetherius. That one being a collection of short stories.
          anyway that was my brief update. so hopefully you guys enjoy what i got coming.
          
          P.S: I have started a youtube channel for funsies. I haven't had much on it but I do plan to upload more for that too

toxicbotto117

@Woltec00 it absolutely is! im loving it
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Woltec00

@ toxicbotto117  Hell yea man baldurs gate 3 was so fun to play 
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toxicbotto117

@Woltec00 that's about me too most days of the week
            been playing a lot of baldurs gate 3
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toxicbotto117

hey you guys! i hope all is well for you.
          I want to apologize for not uploading much this year. I got really busy with my winter job and it was a pretty hard year. my manager this year was pretty shitty and one of my co workers was pretty creepy and gross. he made a lot of bad and creepy comments about girls and would bother me to send him NSFW stuff. suffice it to say my work conditions there got much worse.
          Now I have started a new job. It's a little hard and stressful, but the job is pretty good. Pay is alright but the full time benefits are really good! so to sum up, due to my new job and its busy schedule I have had a hard time getting back to writing but i am getting back into it now. I just wanted to apologize for my absence and the reason why
          but very soon I will start to upload again pretty frequently

toxicbotto117

i hope all of you are doing well. I just want to say that now ash is leaving pokemon after becoming the champion finally (took my entire life) I am sad to see him go and leave the series. I hope we get to see him grow up in the end and see who out of his harem of girls he gets with. It's most likely sarena whom i like a lot but my personal preference is dawn. I always thought they had the best chemistry where they are  like best friends, broth/sister but at the same time had a few deep moments that can be viewed as romantic
          
          as for the new characters. I'm very excited to see what personalities roy and riko have, what their relation to each other is (friends, siblings, lovers, etc...) and just to see how their journeys go and see if they have a team rocket-like team of stalkers after them all the time or something completely new.