tpwklosah

I'm not dead, i promise (don't believe me)

tpwklosah

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A lot has happened since school has started i actually do have a social life so yea i met this cute guy and he is a part of my friend group but it was kinda obvious that we had a thing for each other. We started talking irl and texting like 24/7 and there was this time were he held my fucking hand i though it was going fine and it would lead to something actually serious but then it just stopped :/ there was something going on abt his family and so we blamed it on that but he is not the same anymore and that happened like a month ago and i genuinely was still waiting on him. We barely text but we do talk irl since we're in the same friend group but we don't talk like, just the two of us yk there's always someone else but the thing is, he's literally sitting next to me im class so we do talk but it's just as friends and it's not like a conversation. So yup, this was like the first time i fell for someone and it was mutual and now i wanna take it back. I'm trying to move on and when I'm at home, distracted it feels pretty easy but everytime i hear his voice i feel like dying. Also, my friends are kinda together now and I'm so proud of them but whenever i see them, like holding hands or looking at each other and smiling it kinda triggers me and i have to go to the bathroom to calm myself down. Ahm so that's what's going on, i always read ppls stories and i could never relate but now i have a story of my own and idk what that says abt me.