I don't know when I'll be able to write again. I just got over some family issues and now there's more stuff being thrown my way. I woke up this morning to a call from my best friend since birth saying that her mom passed away. her mom was practically my mom. no, you know what? she was my mom. god, it hurts so much to use past tense. I don't know what to do. the last time I had to deal with death was when I was 5 and it was my great grandpa who I wasn't really close to. being as old as I am and knowing I'm going to have to spend the rest of my life without my mom hurts more than any pain I've ever experienced before. I'm sorry, I'm truly am, but I don't think writing is something I want to do/should do right now. I thought I was going to be able to get something up in the next week, but now I don't think I can, and I am so sorry for that. I know I'm letting you all down, but writing is the last thing I want to do right now. I hope you all understand ❤